[Verse 1]
Ten seconds left standing outside the door,
Keys shaking in my hand like before,
Rain dripping from my hoodie sleeves,
Streetlights flickering over me.
Nine seconds and my chest locks tight,
Whole world blurry under white headlights,
I can hear my heartbeat through my ears
Like my body’s trying to disappear.
Eight seconds and I almost leave,
Turn around before anybody sees
How wrecked I look underneath the skin,
How hard it is just to exist.
Seven seconds and I force a breath,
Taste smoke and blood inside my chest,
There’s broken nails pressed in my palms
Trying to keep myself calm.
[Pre-Chorus]
And every second feels too loud tonight…
[Chorus]
Six… five…
I can barely stay alive,
Four… three…
Something’s swallowing me whole underneath.
Two… one…
I don’t know what I’ve become,
But the clock keeps counting down
Even when you’re falling apart now.
[Verse 2]
Ten steps down the empty hall,
Fluorescent lights and hospital walls,
Everybody speaking way too soft
Like they’re scared I’ll come undone.
Nine thoughts spinning through my head,
All the things I should’ve said,
All the nights I swore were my last
Still hanging over me like glass.
Eight scars hidden underneath black clothes,
Seven lies everybody knows,
Six missed calls lighting up my phone,
Five more nights scared to be alone.
Four pills sitting in my hand,
Three deep breaths I barely stand,
Two red eyes in the bathroom glass,
One version of me I can’t get back.
[Chorus]
Six… five…
I can barely stay alive,
Four… three…
Every memory cuts through me.
Two… one…
I still don’t know what I’ve become,
But the clock keeps counting down
And somehow I’m still here now.
[Bridge]
Zero.
Silence.
And for a second
Nothing hurts.
No voices.
No panic.
No noise inside my skull.
Just breathing.
Slow.
Uneven.
Human.
And maybe that’s enough tonight.
[Final Chorus]
Six… five…
I think I’m finally realizing
Four… three…
Survival still means something to me.
Two… one…
Maybe I don’t have to run,
Maybe healing starts somehow
By making it through right now.
[Outro]
Ten seconds can change a life.
Sometimes staying
Is the hardest part.
Rin
