[Verse 1]
You fall asleep with your hand in mine
TV glow painting blue across your face
And I lie there counting all the ways
A good girl wouldn’t think like this
You talk about apartments, future plans
Dogs in the garden, keys on chains
While I’m wondering why her name
Feels different in my mouth these days
[Pre-Chorus]
I never crossed the line
But God, I dance beside it
[Chorus]
I’m half loyal
Half gone
One foot here
One where I don’t belong
You kiss me slow
While my mind runs wild
Trying not to turn your love
Into collateral
And you trust me
God, you trust me completely
But my heart split quietly
Long before either of us noticed
I’m half loyal
And it’s killing me
[Verse 2]
She sends a message, my whole chest lifts
Like my body answers before I do
You ask me why I’m smiling at my phone
I say “nothing,” and you still believe me
And that’s the part that hurts the most
You never gave me reasons to leave
No screaming matches, no shattered plates
Just me becoming somebody you can’t keep
[Pre-Chorus]
You love me with both hands
While I hold back half of mine
[Chorus]
I’m half loyal
Half ash
Trying to build forever
On a crack like this
You hold me close
Like I’m all yours
While every little thought of her
Starts another war
And you trust me
Like I’d never break you
But there are secrets underneath
Everything I say to you
I’m half loyal
And you deserve full love
[Bridge]
Maybe nothing happens
Maybe she never knows
Maybe I bury every feeling
And nobody gets hurt
But I still hear her laugh
In the middle of your sentences
And I still feel guilty
Every time you call me “home”
[Verse 3]
So now I sit beside you in your car
Streetlights flickering over your skin
And you’re talking while I realize
I’ve been disappearing inch by inch
I don’t wanna be the villain here
Don’t wanna turn your heart into damage
But staying starts to feel dishonest
When half of me is somewhere you can’t reach
[Final Chorus]
I’m half loyal
Half breaking
Trying to love you right
With a heart already shaking
And maybe you’ll hate me
Maybe you should
‘Cause you gave me something real
And I gave you half-good
So if one day
I finally tell the truth
Just know it wasn’t your fault
I was already splitting in two
I’m half loyal
But you loved me whole
Rin
