O is for…outplayed

Same place, same shift, same routine air

Familiar faces, you standing there

Nothing felt off, nothing felt strange

Didn’t know everything was about to change

You laughed with me like you always did

While hiding something I can’t forgive

I thought I knew you, thought you were safe

Now I can’t recognise your face

And I keep asking, over and over

How did I miss it? How was I closer?

How did you smile like nothing’s wrong?

Play the part for oh so long?

While you were crossing every line

Twisting something that was mine

You took my face, you took my trust

Turned it into something unjust

And I’m left here, sick inside

From all the things you chose to hide

You showed up every day like that

Joking round, just normal chat

Stood with him like you were mates

Like you weren’t sealing both our fates

Talking easy, side by side

While living out a hidden life

You played us both so perfectly

Like we were blind to what you’d be

I trace the steps, I scan the signs

But all I see are blurred-out lines

How did you smile like nothing’s wrong?

Play the part for oh so long?

While you were crossing every line

Twisting something that was mine

You took my face, you took my trust

Turned it into something unjust

And I’m left here, sick inside

From all the things you chose to hide

Now everything feels different, wrong

Like I don’t know where I belong

I lie awake most every night

Replaying it, can’t switch it off right

Every look feels sharp and strange

Like they all see me rearranged

I feel their eyes, I feel the shift

Like I’m the one they talk about in bits

And I’m so angry I could break

At all the trust you chose to take

And I hate that I feel ashamed

Like I’m the one who’s somehow to blame

Even if it isn’t real

It doesn’t change the way I feel

You took control, you took my choice

Silenced something in my voice

Now I don’t know what’s left of me

Or who I’m meant to trust to be

You weren’t a stranger passing through

You stood there like I mattered to you

How did you smile like nothing’s wrong?

Stand beside us all along?

While you were breaking everything

Behind the mask you chose to bring

You took my face, but not my name

I won’t carry all that shame

‘Cause what you did speaks loud and clear

And none of that belongs to me, not here

It’s messy, it’s raw, it doesn’t end

Losing you wasn’t losing a friend

Just losing the lie I thought was true

And learning I deserved better friend than yoy