Band-Aids Don’t Heal

Yeah…

I said I’m fiiine… but I don’t feeeel it

They hear my wooords… but don’t heeear me

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Sittin’ in a chair, hands tight, jaw locked (tight)

Tryna say I’m hurt but it don’t come out (nah)

You just write notes like I’m some case file (okay)

I been drowning in my head for a long while (too long)

Say “how you feel?” like it’s easy to say (what?)

I been fightin’ just to make it through the day (barely)

Every word I say feel weak, feel small (small)

So I bottle it up ‘til I break the wall (BOOM)

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I tried to explaaain it… you simplified paaain (why?)

Turned all my stooorms into “chemical chaaange” (nah)

Say it’ll paaaass if I just stay strooong… (stay strong?)

But I’ve been holding on too looong…

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These pillsss don’t heaaal, they just make me nuuumb (numb)

Turn down the noooise but the pain still huuums (still there)

I’m screaaming outtt, but it dies in the aiiir (echo)

Hands reaching outtt—no one’s thereee (no one)

Put baaaand-aids onnn what’s breaking apaaart (rip it)

You see the scaaars but you missing my heeaaart (missed it)

If this is helppp… then tell me what’s reeeal…

Why do I feeeel…

worse when I’m tryna heeeal…

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Bottle on the dresser, I hate that sight (hate it)

Take it every day just to feel “alright” (quotes)

Side effects hit—now I don’t feel real (detached)

Tell me what’s worse… pain or not feelin’ at all? (tell me)

You don’t see nights when I lose my sleep (no)

Thoughts get loud, yeah, they run too deep (too deep)

Mind like a prison I can’t escape (locked)

And I’m the one holdin’ the gate (me)

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(heartbeat gets louder… boom… boom… boom…)

What if I snaaap?! (snap)

What if I faaall?! (fall)

What if these meds don’t help at aaall?! (at all?!)

I don’t want nuuumb—I just wanna feeeel… (feel)

Something reeeal… (real…)

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These pillsss don’t heaaal, they just make me nuuumb (numb)

Turn down the noooise but the pain still huuums (still there)

I’m screaaming outtt, but it dies in the aiiir (echo)

Hands reaching outtt—no one’s theeere (NO ONE)

Band-aids peeeel when the wound’s too deeeep (too deep)

Tryna find resttt but I can’t find sleeeep (no sleep)

If this is helppp… then tell me what’s reeeal…

Why do I feeeel…

(heartbeat cuts… silence)

…like I’m faaading…

while I’m tryna heeeal…

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(faint heartbeat fading out)

You don’t heeear me…

…but I’m still heeere…

…right?