[VERSE 1]
We were never supposed to last forever
At least that’s what people said
Sixteen-year-olds with borrowed jumpers
and bigger hearts than sense
I thought we’d have a messy ending
A slammed door, a final fight
A box of things I’d give back years later
after enough time had passed
I thought one day I’d hear your name
and smile at who we used to be
I never imagined
you’d stay sixteen
while the years kept happening to me
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[PRE-CHORUS]
Nobody warns you
there are endings worse than goodbye
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[CHORUS]
You were supposed to be my future ex-girlfriend
A chapter, not a ghost
A photograph I’d find one day
and love from a distance most
You were supposed to be somebody
I almost forgot I knew
Not somebody I carry everywhere
the way I still carry you
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[VERSE 2]
I still catch myself collecting things
you would’ve laughed about first
Songs on the radio
stupid headlines
little moments that hurt
Like somehow my brain still believes
you’re only running late
And one day I’ll see your name appear
and everything will be okay
But grief is a quiet teacher
It doesn’t shout
It waits
Then suddenly it’s ten years later
and you’re standing in a different age
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[PRE-CHORUS]
And everybody talks about moving on
like love has somewhere to go
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[CHORUS]
You were supposed to be my future ex-girlfriend
The girl before the next
A lesson, a memory
a name inside old texts
You were supposed to become ordinary
softened by time and truth
Instead you became something untouchable
and I never got over you
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[BRIDGE]
Your parents never knew our story
not the whole thing anyway
The late-night calls
the shaking hands
the plans we thought we’d make
And after everything changed
I stopped knocking at that door
Because losing you was hard enough
I couldn’t lose myself some more
So now there are pieces of you
locked inside other people’s lives
Photographs I’ll never hold
stories I’ll never find
And sometimes that hurts almost as much
as missing you itself
Knowing parts of you still exist
somewhere beyond my reach
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[FINAL CHORUS]
You were supposed to be my future ex-girlfriend
Not the love that time stood still for
Not the reason every birthday after sixteen
felt different than before
You were supposed to fade gently
the way first loves often do
Instead the years kept taking me forward
while they left you where they found you
And sometimes I still hate that
More than I know how to say
Because I keep becoming someone new
while you stay the same age
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[OUTRO]
I thought we’d end each other
the way young lovers do
I never imagined
I’d spend the rest of my life
missing you.
Rin
