[Intro]
Read this slowly…
Like it’s the last real thing
I ever said
[Verse 1]
I still go to work
Still answer calls
Still force a laugh
Through these empty halls
Nobody guessed
Behind my eyes
I spent every drive home
Wanting to disappear at night
That’s the strange part
The world moves on
While a soul falls apart
Everything keeps spinning
While somebody decides
They can’t survive
Their own mind
[Pre-Chorus]
And I tried…
God, I tried
To be enough
For everyone in my life
[Hook]
Now that I’m gone
Will you finally hear me?
Will the silence in this room
Make you finally see me?
Every smile was survival
Every joke hid pain
I got so good at looking alive
Nobody noticed
I was fading away
[Verse 2]
I’m tired in places
Sleep can’t reach
Carrying pressure
So long it buried me deep
Tired of being needed
But never truly known
Standing in crowded rooms
Still feeling alone
There are people I love
More than my own breath
And somehow
That still wasn’t enough
To save me from myself
[Bridge]
Maybe that makes me selfish
Maybe broken inside
But pain changes shape
When it’s buried alive
And after so many years
Of fighting this war
The dark stopped feeling frightening
It just felt quiet anymore
[Final Hook]
Now that I’m gone
Do these words finally matter?
Do you hear how exhausted
I was underneath the laughter?
I never wanted attention
I just wanted peace
One moment where the noise
Inside my head
Finally ceased
[Outro]
Tell my son
I loved him with everything I had
Even on the days
My mind convinced me
I was failing him
Tell him none of this
Was ever his fault
Tell him his laugh
Was one of the only things
That still reached me
On the darkest nights
And tell my wife…
I’m sorry
I’m sorry for every time
I went emotionally distant
While begging internally
To feel close again
I’m sorry I became someone
Who knew how to survive
But forgot how to live
Please remember me
Before the darkness did
And if anybody asks
When I started fading away
Tell them
It happened slowly
Quietly
Right in front of everyone
Goodbye
HumbleMike
