[Verse 1]
I learned young how to carry silence
How to smile while my chest caves in
How to stand in a crowded room
And still feel invisible inside my own skin
Everybody loves the strong man
Til the strong man starts to shake
Then they get uncomfortable
With the weight he cannot fake
So I turn pain into humor
Turn fear into “I’m alright”
Spend my whole damn life performing
Just to sleep alone at night
[Pre-Chorus]
And I swear I’m trying
God, I swear I care
But some days the air feels heavy
Like there’s pressure everywhere
[Chorus]
I’m so tired of being the one
Who holds the walls up when they come undone
Tired of breathing through a storm nobody sees
Tired of fighting wars that only live in me
And I don’t need saving
Don’t need someone to say “stay strong”
I just wanna feel human
Without feeling like I’m wrong
Cause my soul feels worn thin
Like rust beneath the paint
And every time I heal a little
Something new inside me breaks
[Verse 2]
I love hard but think harder
That’s a dangerous mix to hold
Cause my mind turns every memory
Into something sharp and cold
I replay conversations
Like they hide some deeper truth
Trying to find where I lost myself
Or maybe where I lost my youth
Cause somewhere between surviving
And becoming who I am
I turned into emotional shelter
For everybody else again
[Pre-Chorus]
Now the nights feel longer
And the quiet cuts deep
Cause exhaustion hits different
When your mind won’t let you sleep
[Chorus]
I’m so tired of being the one
Who keeps his head up when the damage comes
Tired of carrying weight that nobody sees
Tired of acting like it doesn’t bury me
And I don’t need fixing
Don’t need hollow sympathy
I just want somebody to sit beside
The darkest parts of me
Cause my soul feels worn thin
Like smoke inside my lungs
And every year I keep surviving
Feels heavier than the last one
[Bridge]
Maybe I was never broken
Maybe I just never stopped bleeding
Maybe strength ain’t staying silent
Maybe strength is finally speaking
Cause I’ve stood in storms so long
I forgot the sky gets clear
Forgot peace is supposed to feel safe
Instead of disappearing when it gets near
[Final Chorus]
I’m still here but barely sometimes
Still loving with a fractured mind
Still trying not to let the darkness win
Still trying not to harden from within
And if you really see me
Don’t tell me I’ll be okay
Just sit with me in the silence
Long enough for the weight to fade
Cause I’m not looking for answers
Not tonight
I just needed someone
To hear what survival sounds like