[Verse 1]
I wake up already tired
Like my soul never slept
Staring at the ceiling
Trying to survive myself again
And nobody sees that part
Cause I still answer texts
Still laugh at the right moments
Still carry conversations like I’m okay
I became so good at functioning broken
People started calling it strength
But internally
It feels like I’m dragging chains
Through every hour of the day
Not sadness
Not even pain anymore
Just heaviness
Constant
Heavy
Like existing itself takes effort
[Chorus]
I’m still in survival
But the danger lives in me
Every thought feels sharp enough
To cut my self-worth clean
And I keep fighting silence
That gets louder when I’m alone
Trying to convince myself
My life means more than what I’ve known
People call me strong
Cause they never see the shaking
Never hear the war inside me
Never feel how close I am to breaking
Like surviving quietly
Makes the damage disappear
[Verse 2]
I compare myself to everybody
Even people who love me
Like somehow I’m still losing
In rooms I already belong in
I question every good thing
Every compliment
Every moment of connection
Cause deep down
Something in me still believes
I’m hard to truly choose
And that thought follows me everywhere
Into love
Into friendships
Into mirrors
Into silence
I keep surviving quietly enough
That nobody notices it’s survival
[Bridge]
I don’t want attention
I don’t want saving
I just want relief
From the war my own mind creates daily
Cause people think survival
Looks dramatic
Sometimes it’s just quietly making it through another night
Without letting the darkness convince you
You were never enough to begin with
[Final Chorus]
I’m still in survival
Still fighting thoughts I can’t outrun
Still trying to find value
In the person I’ve become
Still carrying emptiness
Through every crowded room
Still wondering why I feel invisible
To myself too
And maybe that’s the hardest part
Not the sadness
Not the fear
Just waking up every day
And pretending resilience means healing
Because nobody notices the difference
Between survival
And invincibility