Invisible Invincibility

I wake up already tired

Like my soul never slept

Staring at the ceiling

Trying to survive myself again

And nobody sees that part

Cause I still answer texts

Still laugh at the right moments

Still carry conversations like I’m okay

I became so good at functioning broken

People started calling it strength

But internally

It feels like I’m dragging chains

Through every hour of the day

Not sadness

Not even pain anymore

Just heaviness

Constant

Heavy

Like existing itself takes effort

I’m still in survival

But the danger lives in me

Every thought feels sharp enough

To cut my self-worth clean

And I keep fighting silence

That gets louder when I’m alone

Trying to convince myself

My life means more than what I’ve known

People call me strong

Cause they never see the shaking

Never hear the war inside me

Never feel how close I am to breaking

Like surviving quietly

Makes the damage disappear

I compare myself to everybody

Even people who love me

Like somehow I’m still losing

In rooms I already belong in

I question every good thing

Every compliment

Every moment of connection

Cause deep down

Something in me still believes

I’m hard to truly choose

And that thought follows me everywhere

Into love

Into friendships

Into mirrors

Into silence

I keep surviving quietly enough

That nobody notices it’s survival

I don’t want attention

I don’t want saving

I just want relief

From the war my own mind creates daily

Cause people think survival

Looks dramatic

Sometimes it’s just quietly making it through another night

Without letting the darkness convince you

You were never enough to begin with

I’m still in survival

Still fighting thoughts I can’t outrun

Still trying to find value

In the person I’ve become

Still carrying emptiness

Through every crowded room

Still wondering why I feel invisible

To myself too

And maybe that’s the hardest part

Not the sadness

Not the fear

Just waking up every day

And pretending resilience means healing

Because nobody notices the difference

Between survival

And invincibility