Enough to Break

Everybody leans on me like I was built from stone

Like I don't sit awake at night feeling completely alone

Bills stacked high on the counter, pressure filling up the room

Trying to hold this family together while I'm coming unglued

My little boy still looks at me like heroes never shake

So I learned to hide the trembling every single day

And she's drowning in her own mind while I'm fighting not to sink

God forbid I fall apart too... so I never let them see

I learned how to bleed without making a sound

Smile through the weight while I'm breaking down

Everybody calls me strong

Cause nobody sees what's underneath

I'm so damn tired of carrying ghosts

Being the fire when nobody knows

How close I am to losing my grip

While everybody says “you got this”

And maybe that's why it shattered me

Standing there while you stopped seeing me

Cause all my life I've been terrified

That love disappears when I stop being needed

I spent years trying to be everything for everyone

Provider, protector, husband, father, loaded gun

Head down pushing forward even when my chest caves in

Cause if I stop moving for one second, everything might end

And maybe you didn't mean to lose yourself that night

Maybe I disappeared slowly long before the lights

Maybe we were both searching for something we couldn't name

You chasing a feeling while I was begging love to stay

You said you got lost in the moment

I got lost in the distance

You were reaching for escape

I was reaching for connection

I'm so damn tired of carrying ghosts

Being the fire when nobody knows

How close I am to losing my grip

While everybody says “you got this”

And maybe that's why it shattered me

Standing there while you stopped seeing me

Cause all my life I've been terrified

That love disappears when I stop being needed

So tell me...

Who do strong men fall into?

Who holds us together

When we're barely breathing too?

Cause I gave every piece of myself away

Till I couldn't recognize my own face

And I still wake up every morning

Trying to save everyone but me

I'm so damn tired...

But I still get up

Still hold your hand

Still call your bluff

Still kiss my son

Still fight these wars

Even with my heart spread across the floor

Maybe one day somebody will see

The man underneath all this machinery

Cause I was never scared of dying alone

I was scared nobody would notice I was gone