[Verse 1]
Everybody leans on me like I was built from stone
Like I don't sit awake at night feeling completely alone
Bills stacked high on the counter, pressure filling up the room
Trying to hold this family together while I'm coming unglued
My little boy still looks at me like heroes never shake
So I learned to hide the trembling every single day
And she's drowning in her own mind while I'm fighting not to sink
God forbid I fall apart too... so I never let them see
[Pre-Chorus]
I learned how to bleed without making a sound
Smile through the weight while I'm breaking down
Everybody calls me strong
Cause nobody sees what's underneath
[Chorus]
I'm so damn tired of carrying ghosts
Being the fire when nobody knows
How close I am to losing my grip
While everybody says “you got this”
And maybe that's why it shattered me
Standing there while you stopped seeing me
Cause all my life I've been terrified
That love disappears when I stop being needed
[Verse 2]
I spent years trying to be everything for everyone
Provider, protector, husband, father, loaded gun
Head down pushing forward even when my chest caves in
Cause if I stop moving for one second, everything might end
And maybe you didn't mean to lose yourself that night
Maybe I disappeared slowly long before the lights
Maybe we were both searching for something we couldn't name
You chasing a feeling while I was begging love to stay
[Pre-Chorus]
You said you got lost in the moment
I got lost in the distance
You were reaching for escape
I was reaching for connection
[Chorus]
I'm so damn tired of carrying ghosts
Being the fire when nobody knows
How close I am to losing my grip
While everybody says “you got this”
And maybe that's why it shattered me
Standing there while you stopped seeing me
Cause all my life I've been terrified
That love disappears when I stop being needed
[Bridge]
So tell me...
Who do strong men fall into?
Who holds us together
When we're barely breathing too?
Cause I gave every piece of myself away
Till I couldn't recognize my own face
And I still wake up every morning
Trying to save everyone but me
[Final Chorus]
I'm so damn tired...
But I still get up
Still hold your hand
Still call your bluff
Still kiss my son
Still fight these wars
Even with my heart spread across the floor
Maybe one day somebody will see
The man underneath all this machinery
Cause I was never scared of dying alone
I was scared nobody would notice I was gone