"The Last Meeting (With My Dark Self)"

He sat across from me, just talkin’ straight

A guy named Halex, open with fate

He told me stories, no shame, no mask

Adventures of love from present to past

Then he said something I’ll never forget

“How Christians play holy, but sin in secret"

They praise in the light, but dance in the night

Like apples of sin don’t need to be right

He said it loud, he said it clear

But he never knew I was sitting near

Not just a listener—I was the scene

The one hiding shadows behind the clean

And in that moment, truth hit my soul

A mirror shattered, but made me whole

That was the last meeting with my dark self

The final talk before I found help

No more lies in the pews I sing

No more chains in the offering

God didn’t place him there for fun

He was the voice when I was numb

A stranger’s truth turned on the light

And I walked away from the longest night

Went home, heart heavy, mind wide awake

Thinking if this pain was my biggest mistake

But I heard a whisper not from this world

“You’re not ruined, you’re still my pearl”

I thought the past stole every chance

But it just gave me a reason to dance

Not a curse, not my fault, not shame

Just a story that shaped my name

Forgiveness ain’t easy, but it’s real

Healing takes time, but wounds will seal

I don’t gotta fake it, I don’t gotta run

I’m not what I did, I’m what He’s begun

He pulled me out, He made me clean

Out the nightmare, into the dream

I’m born again, the past is done

I live in light, not in the undone

That was the last meeting with my dark self

The final talk before I found help

No more lies in the pews I sing

No more chains in the offering

God didn’t place him there for fun

He was the voice when I was numb

A stranger’s truth turned on the light

And I walked away from the longest night

So if you're hiding, know this too

God’s not afraid to come find you

Through strangers, moments, even tears

He breaks the silence and ends your fears

That day I changed, that night I cried

But it was the day I came alive

I met the dark, but I chose the light

And now I’m walking into life so bright