[Intro - whispered, dark]
Yeah…
I pick my poison, and I drink it slow
No one kills me… like the me I know
[Verse 1]
2003, age eleven
Fell from grace, far from heaven
Found a belt just layin’ around
Swung it wild, took a kid down
Next day guilt hit my chest
Told him sorry, he said "God bless"
We were cool… but it never left
The taste of rage still on my breath
Another boy rolled by my zone
Bike wheels spinning, I was cold as stone
Held a rock, yeah, big and mean
Swung it hard like a bad dream
Saw red, bump on his head
Ran fast home, thought he was dead
But he never came back with hate
He gave me space, he knew my weight
[Choir]
I pick my poison, I made my bed
With scars and fire inside my head
One kiss stolen, a face got slapped
Scissors chased me, heart beat trapped
I was just a kid in a rebel shell
Living like I’m walking hell
Taste the candy, taste the smoke
Sweet can bitter, truth will choke
[Verse 2]
Fights at school, flipped the desk
Put a kid’s face where the teacher rests
Told him loud, "Don’t mess again"
He said sorry, then brought the pain
Pulled a knife, I ran like fire
Another life, another wire
Close to death, too many times
I danced on edges, crossed the lines
Snuck out through the hole in the back
Skipped on rules, never looked back
Jumped on walls, threw up flames
Fireworks flying, dodged the names
Smoked once, tasted like lies
Coughed it out, no second tries
Even stole some candy treats
Put it in my pants like it’s just sweets
[Chorus]
I pick my poison, I made my bed
With scars and fire inside my head
One kiss stolen, a face got slapped
Scissors chased me, heart beat trapped
I was just a kid in a rebel shell
Living like I’m walking hell
Taste the candy, taste the smoke
Sweet can bitter, truth will choke
[Bridge - Melodic and reflective]
One-time taste, never again
But I knew I wasn’t innocent then
The wrong road, one twist away
But something deep was gonna change my way
[Breakdown - slow, dark]
I was the trouble, the fear, the fight
The shadow creeping late at night
But inside me, the war was loud
A lost kid screaming in the crowd
[Outro – soft voice, whispering again]
I pick my poison…
And nothing can kill me…
Like the damage
Only that poison can do to me...
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