“Secrets in the Shadows”

(Alt titles: “Delete My Past”, “Locked Door”, “Lesson in the Pain”)

I locked the door, the lights were low

No one knew where I would go

Clickin’ tabs and chasin’ love

On dirty screens, I fell too much

Lookin’ for hugs in empty text

Tryna feel what I’d never get

A box of shame, a trail of names

Each one gone, but I’m still the same

You can lie to the mirror, but your soul still knows

All the places that you shouldn’t have gone

Tried to be brave in a whisper and code

But it all felt wrong…

Secrets in the shadows, photos I regret

Love turned into pressure, hearts I never met

Burned in the moment, frozen in the screen

Tryna be somebody, but losing me

I was drowning in attention,

Textin’ pain disguised as pleasure

Now I’m rising from the wreckage

Time to delete my past forever

Met a stranger in the night

Didn’t say no, didn’t feel right

A lie to my aunt, a truth in the scar

Tried to hide, but it went too far

Kissed a boy who knew my name

But never once knew my real pain

Lived two lives, both a lie

Until one day, I said goodbye

Can’t rewind the footage, can’t un-send the pic

But I can say I’m done with it

Let the shame be a lesson, not a chain

And break the cycle, not the same

Secrets in the shadows, photos I regret

Love turned into pressure, hearts I never met

Burned in the moment, frozen in the screen

Tryna be somebody, but losing me

I was drowning in attention,

Textin’ pain disguised as pleasure

Now I’m rising from the wreckage

Time to delete my past forever

And maybe I was never bad

Just a kid who needed love so bad

Got lost in lies behind a cam

Gave all of me to empty hands

But I forgive that broken me

And I’m not what they made me be

I’ve made mistakes, but I’m not done

I’ll build my future one by one

No more secrets in the shadows, I’m done with regret

No more love that leaves me empty and forgets

I burned some bridges, but I saved my soul

No longer playin’ someone else’s role

I was drowning in the silence

Now I rise in my defiance

Gonna live and love with purpose

And delete my past… on purpose.

I’m not what I did…

I’m what I choose to do now.

This is my new beginning.