"Double Life (The Hidden Scars)"

Album: The Change

I was eight with a smile so wide

Innocent soul with nothing to hide

Moved to a place where dreams collide

New school, new life, just trying to survive

Nintendo 64 and friends by my side

Backstreet Boys on the stereo, we’d dance and hide

Afraid of the dark but still full of light

Until that day when it all went night

He said, “Come play,” and I believed

A broken car, a twisted scheme

He stole my trust, he stole my peace

And left me in pieces I couldn’t retrieve

He said, “Don’t tell or you’ll lose it all”

I was too small to fight, too scared to call

So I split in two and learned to fall

Into silence where no one saw

This is my double life, my silent cry

A mask I wore just to survive

You saw a smile, but never knew

The hell I faced, what they put me through

Behind closed doors, the truth was caged

My body stolen, my soul betrayed

Still here, still breathing, but not the same

This double life—it's marked my name

A friend once true turned cold one night

He saw the secret, then joined the fight

Against my will, against what’s right

And I kept quiet, paralyzed by fright

In grandma’s house, in schoolyard games

They broke me down, they burned my name

With threats and lies, they played their part

But they couldn’t touch my beating heart

I was a child, not made for pain

But they saw prey, and not my name

My soul was screaming in the rain

But no one heard, and none explained

So I kept it locked, buried deep

While monsters danced and angels weep

Inside of me, a war began

Between the broken boy and the man

This is my double life, my silent cry

A mask I wore just to survive

You saw a smile, but never knew

The hell I faced, what they put me through

Behind closed doors, the truth was caged

My body stolen, my soul betrayed

Still here, still breathing, but not the same

This double life—it's marked my name

They thought they’d win, but here I stand

No longer hiding who I am

My story’s raw, but it’s my truth

And I won’t let them silence my youth

To every child still locked in fear

Your voice is strong, your soul is clear

You’re not alone—this pain will pass

Your scars will sing, your strength will last

This was my double life, my hidden fight

But I won’t be silent one more night

I break the chains, I face the fire

I let this truth become my choir

Behind closed doors, I found my name

And turned the ashes into flame

Still here, still rising, and not ashamed

This double life—it won’t remain