[Intro]
mm-mm
sometimes I wonder
(not again)
who I'd be now
if somebody had shown me I mattered
(mm-mm)
[Verse 1]
how different would my life have felt
if somebody had looked for me?
if disappearing wasn't easier
than believing somebody cared
if every silence wasn't filled
with waiting to be forgotten
if I learned young
that I was worth something
would I still carry this weight?
would I still question my place?
would I still search every room
for signs I'm in the way?
[Pre-Chorus]
sometimes I think
(sometimes)
I'm grieving someone
I never got to be
[Chorus]
how different would my life have felt
if somebody had treated me like I mattered?
like losing me would've hurt
like my name stayed in their head after I left
would I still question everything?
would I still wait for people to leave?
would I still struggle to believe
the things they say about me?
oh-oh
I think about it too much
(too much, too much)
yeah-yeah
the life I might've had
if I'd felt important
[Post-Chorus]
(mm-mm)
if I'd felt important
(oh-oh)
would I know it now?
[Verse 2]
would I walk a little lighter?
would I trust a little easier?
would kindness feel normal
instead of something I have to question?
would I know how to stay
without expecting goodbye?
would I see myself differently
through my own eyes?
cause every compliment still feels
like it belongs to somebody else
and every good thing takes a fight
before I let myself believe it
[Pre-Chorus]
maybe that's why
(why)
some things hit harder now
[Chorus]
how different would my life have felt
if somebody had treated me like I mattered?
like I wasn't temporary
like I belonged somewhere
would I still pull away
every time somebody gets close?
would I still search for proof
that they'll leave eventually?
oh-oh
sometimes I wonder who I'd be
(who I'd be)
yeah-yeah
if I learned earlier
what care was supposed to feel like
[Bridge]
maybe she would've laughed louder
(maybe)
maybe she would've worried less
maybe she would've believed people
the first time they said nice things
maybe she would've stayed longer
instead of always being ready to run
maybe she would've known
she was enough all along
[Chorus]
how different would my life have felt
if somebody had treated me like I mattered?
if I didn't spend years
trying to earn something that should've been given
cause I'm still learning now
what some people learn as children
still trying to believe
I don't have to prove my worth
oh-oh
maybe that's why it hurts sometimes
(hurts sometimes)
yeah-yeah
cause I can almost see
the person I might've been
standing right beside me
looking back at me
[Outro]
mm-mm
I can't change the beginning
(no, I can't)
mm-mm
but sometimes
I miss someone
I never got to be
(someone I never got to be)
mm-mm
and I still wonder
how different it would've felt