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just like that

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funny how fast people disappear

one second close, next not here

and maybe it’s stupid, maybe it’s small

but tonight it just hit it all

already low, already tired

already feeling unwanted, expired

then you vanish into grey

like I was temporary anyway

and yeah I’m angry

because what was the point?

coming back soft, making me relax

just to disappear again

I’m so tired of people

making me feel safe

then leaving

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just like that

like I should be used to it by now

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off your list

like losing me was easy somehow

and maybe it’s not about one person

maybe it’s everything underneath it

everybody fading away

hitting me all at once today

someone says they’ll be there for me

and part of me wants to believe

because god I’m tired of carrying this alone

tired of feeling like nobody stays home

I’m hurt about my life tonight

about my past, about not getting it right

about watching everything fall apart

while I keep trying with this heart

and maybe that’s why this hit so hard

because I’m already covered in scars

another person pulling away

another thing I couldn’t make stay

I know people leave…

I just wish it stopped hurting

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just like that

another name gone dark and flat

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and I’m sat here low

wondering why I care this much though

and maybe it’s not about one friend

maybe I’m just tired of losing again

tired of people coming close

then becoming ghosts

I act strong, I act fine

but some nights it all aligns

every hurt, every loss, every goodbye

all replaying at the same time

I hate how one small change

can send my whole mind spiralling

like every silence is proof

I was always easier to lose

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yeah I noticed

even if I pretend I don’t

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and it hurts more

when your heart’s already broke

I’m angry, tired, feeling small

like I’ve got nothing left at all

and tonight I just can’t pretend

I’m okay losing another friend

another name fading out

another long night awake