(spoken intro – soft, rhythmic)
Yeah… I still don’t know where it went wrong,
just know I’ve been barely hanging on.
Some people don’t leave, they just fade out slow,
and you feel it everywhere you go.
[Verse 1]
The more I heal, the more I break,
the more I see the mess I make.
I’m chasing peace I can’t hold tight,
still losing sleep most every night.
I’ve searched for hope in every place,
still wear the truth across my face.
The ones I prayed would always stay,
are all the ones that fade away.
[Pre-Chorus]
And I still think about you sometimes,
late at night when I rewind my mind.
Not every day, not all the time,
just when the silence gets too loud inside.
[Verse 2]
You were never mine to keep,
but you still show up in my sleep.
Life don’t ask, it don’t explain,
it just teaches you how to take the pain.
I smile like I’m okay out loud,
but I still get lost inside a crowd.
Nobody sees what I conceal,
how half of me don’t even feel real.
I’ve fought addiction, fear, and shame,
watched life completely change my name.
Some nights I fall, some nights I pray,
some nights I barely make the day.
[Chorus]
I’m still here, still not alright,
still wide awake through empty nights.
Still holding on, still letting go,
still don’t even know where to go.
Yeah I’m still here, still feel the pain,
still learning how to say your name.
If love was real then why’d it break?
Why do the ones I need escape?
I’m still here, still not okay,
still stuck in everything you say.
Still feel you in a different way,
still watch the good things fade away.
[Verse 3]
Maybe some souls just pass through lives,
like headlights cutting through night skies.
Not meant to stay, not meant to last,
just ghosts that never leave the past.
So I keep walking through the rain,
still learning how to break the chain.
The past still calls, I hear it say,
but I don’t live there anyway.
[Final Chorus – stripped]
I’m still here, still feel your name,
still burn a little when it rains.
Still hold you in the back of my mind,
like you were always right on time.
Yeah I’m still here, still don’t move on,
still feel you when the nights get long.
If love was real then why’d it wait?
Why do we always miss our fate?
I’m still here, still not okay,
still replaying what we never say.
Still feel you in a quiet way,
like you were never far away.
[OUTRO – FINAL DROP]
We were never just “what could’ve been,”
we were the truth we lived back then.
Two broken roads, one same flame,
just bad timing calling our names.
And if this world ever lines it right,
I’d still choose you every single night.
Not just a memory, not just a past,
we were real enough to make it last.
We never got to forever, it’s true,
but we were real enough to feel like truth.
And if love was ever meant to be,
it already happened… in you and me.
Justmama19xx
