Someone help me vision is cloudy. Can’t really see what’s coming for me. Yeah I hear what they really want to say to me. They really in my dreams so help me they really clawing at me dropping in a cage in my mind is I don’t really understand the signs. Please tell my mama I try everything just to keep my spirit high. I need my body I need my body and mine towards together one last time.
I don’t know if I go down this road I really might die. We gonna find out tonight. But I gotta keep some secrets out of the light you understand me, right. With this power I go out fighting like a knight.
Sharing my beliefs and sharing my fight. That many people in this world go through every single night.
Some families don’t understand you right others. You just always having a fight but then they say we were blood so we have to stay together right but that’s not true family really drills holes into you and some of them never get close and left you with a burning hole.
Past traumas that seem to grow, a mental illness that will never go. And a family that would never understand the way of your soul. Sorry, I left the drift away in the world of unknown. Not knowing they’re gonna be saying by soon.
Is time again do it tonight into my mind try to fight. Yeah my voice are over boarding my life. There’s like a board game to them. They just keep rolling my dice.
trying to do everything on my side. I just feel like I’m slowly, losing life. just bored of having to walk like I’m on a knife. don’t want this. Exciting game is really want to play when you have depression and you have this ADHD and you mess it with anxiety. Like I miss a disaster. Waiting to spring, my head about to burst and look at me. I’m bout to leave you a hurt make my family might hurt worse cause I’m bout to burst cause my mind. Is a storm that just keeps on getting worse.
Just like no matter where I go it’s just like a dark shadow following me trapped within me. But he also has to deal with me and I ain’t no easy being. I might have one demon wing. in a red halo that stings. But I still got one holy wing, and a soul that could sing.
So I’m gonna go out and show the shadow who is really demanding. And make him join my team. And then maybe I could reach my dream.
Looking at each other with a smile that just set off steam and smile so wide, you shouldn’t even be a living thing, but yet it exist my shadow thing still need to learn how to control this beast before I cease to exist. So watch how I blow this shit. And awaken true manifestation. Because that’s what I believe in.
JBDL
