Backseat Halo

I still got your lighter in the ashtray tray

Even though you left like you had to get away

Scratched-up floor, rain on the window pane

Your name on my hoodie like a stain in the rain

Mama said pray, but I talked to the wall

Same wall, same crack when the shadows crawl

I seen goodbyes dressed up in pretty clothes

Looked me in the eyes, then it turned to smoke

I was young, thought pain was a phase

Now it sits in the chest and it learned my ways

One foot in the dark, one foot in the light

Tryna keep my heart from a midnight bite

If you coming back, come back clean

If you leaving, don’t haunt my dreams

I can’t keep feeding what I can’t save

Got a little heaven and a lot of graves

Love hurt me bad

Love hurt me bad

I called that grace

It called me back

Love hurt me bad

Love hurt me bad

Angel on my neck

Demon in the back

I keep your photo face-down by the bed

Not for the curse, for the words we said

You wore your bruise like a gold chain

I wore my silence like a fake name

I seen saints with a thief in the grin

Seen devils act soft when the money walks in

Seen your eyes go cold at the red-hand sign

Seen mine do the same when you crossed that line

Now I’m in the mirror with a split-screen face

One side blame, one side grace

I been both the sinner and the one sinned on

Both the last call and the one long gone

If you coming back, come back clean

If you leaving, don’t haunt my dreams

I can’t keep feeding what I can’t save

Got a little heaven and a lot of graves

Love hurt me bad

Love hurt me bad

I called that grace

It called me back

Love hurt me bad

Love hurt me bad

Angel on my neck

Demon in the back

I don’t need a halo made of broken glass

I don’t need a mouth that only speaks past

If the door swings shut, let the echo ring

I still got a pulse, I still got a thing

For the kid in me, for the girl I lost

For every soft lie that came with the cost

I’m learning the hard way, still standing here

Heart full of smoke, but the smoke gets clear

Love hurt me bad

Love hurt me bad

I called that grace

It called me back

Love hurt me bad

Love hurt me bad

Angel on my neck

Demon in the back

Love hurt me bad

Love hurt me bad

I lost my mind

Then I found it back