Looks like I’m smiling too much again looks like my devils horns are showing again. And just floating again. Have my eyes rolling to the back of my head. looks like I’m dead but my brain and the voices are getting restless, getting harder to breathe out of my chest. yelling at my phone again as I Watch the time fly and hurt my mind.
I don't really wanna go to that place where I used to reside in my heart was in pain all the time so please don't let me blow away just really wanted to feel OK. drinking to numb the pain because they took my mom away. That shit hurts me every day. I swear I cried for like a month straight.
Still dealing with this thing in my brain. Shoot him in a leg then just give him a cane and watching him go on limping away.
Yeah, I got this money now all over my face let me down then I mummified away. Yeah people screaming my name, I guess it my resurrection day.
But humanity is falling far understand the human hart and falling down into the deep spiraling again. my eyes looking like they’re spinning around my head I guess just let me turn my halo red. telling Jarvis it’s time to settle it. Shooting out into the abyss. And into the Cosmos. where no one call my phone. don’t need my family to pull me along
but they also didn't understand what was going on. Because the piece from my past is really hurting me all the time and I try to come back.
But you raise your voice at me and I go hide and just speak to the shadow that’s been help me cope with the feelings.
But I know it's wrong but you always just yelling at me making me feel alone. so he just told me just to leave it alone. Not realize I was cutting my own strings. I thought I was really handling things. Things coming out of my seems. That was the pain that was really just taking me and pulling me deep. I guess I’m never gonna be free falling to the ocean floors seas I want to pass on. I hope I see the gate waiting for me then see my mommy.
Real funny using my obsessions. Me thinking it was a blessing. taking pills only to feel nothing looking like Dazai obsessed with dying. But not just die. I’m trying to go out smiling and looking bright.
hoping I can show the world. Not everyone can see eye to eye. So let me lay here as I die.
Float up into the light this is the end of my fight. Mom, I’m sorry I tried.
JBDL
