What if I’m wrong

What if I tried my whole life just to miss it?

What if my faith was just wishful thinking?

What if the voice in my head is right

And I’m not built for the pressure of real life?

What if love always ends in goodbye?

What if hope is just a pretty lie?

What if all these prayers in the dark

Never made it far past my heart?

I keep saying “trust the plan”

But I don’t even know what that is

I keep trying to be a better man

But I keep falling back into this

I got doubt in my bloodstream

Fear in my chest

Trying to convince myself

That I’m not a mess

But every time I get close to believing in me

I hear a voice saying “who do you think you’ll be?”

I don’t wanna lose my faith

But I’m scared of what I’ll find

If everything I’m holding to

Is just something in my mind

What if I’m wrong

About who I am?

What if I never become

What I planned?

What if this pain

Never really goes?

What if I’m stuck

With these ghosts?

What if I’m wrong

About God, about love?

What if I’m not strong

What if I’m not enough?

I’m trying to believe

But the doubt is strong

And it keeps asking me

“What if you’re wrong?”

What if I finally get what I want

And it still don’t feel like home?

What if I build this whole damn life

And still feel alone?

What if healing’s just a word we say

To make the hurting sound okay?

What if I’m just learning how to cope

Instead of actually changing the pain?

I don’t wanna be cynical

But I don’t wanna be blind

I don’t wanna lose everything

Just to find out I was wrong the whole time

I look at myself in the mirror

And don’t recognize the face

Is this who I’m becoming?

Or someone I’m trying to erase?

I don’t wanna let go

But I’m scared to hold tight

When the things that I love

Keep slipping through my life

What if I’m wrong

About who I’ll be?

What if the future

Doesn’t wait for me?

What if these dreams

Are too far gone?

What if I’m just

Holding on?

What if I’m wrong

About faith and fear?

What if I don’t belong

Anywhere here?

I’m trying to be strong

But it’s hard to be long

When a voice keeps saying

“What if you’re wrong?”

Maybe doubt is just the cost

Of wanting something real

Maybe faith isn’t never being scared

Maybe it’s feeling and still believing

Maybe I don’t need every answer

Maybe I just need a step

Even if I’m wrong

At least I’m trying again

What if I’m wrong?

Then I’ll learn

What if I fall?

Then I’ll burn

But I’d rather feel pain

Than never try

I’d rather be scared

Than live my life blind

What if I’m wrong?

Maybe that’s okay

Maybe it’s part of finding

A better way

Even if the doubt is loud and strong

I’m still here…

Even if I’m wrong