[Intro]
Yeah
I ain’t listen when they warned me
Now I listen to the silence
It scream louder than they ever did
[Verse 1]
Used to chase quick thrills
Cheap highs, deep lows
Same friends, same fights
Same lies I chose
Mama called late night
I let it ring out
Thought I had more time
Look who’s gone now
Kept runnin’ from the mirror
‘Til the mirror disappeared
Played brave for the crowd
But I drowned in my own fear
Love right in my hands
I was busy countin’ sins
You were beggin’ me to change
I was focused on the wins
[Chorus]
I had to lose what I loved most
To feel this fire in my bones
Closest loss, coldest lesson
Now it’s war on my old reflection
I never learned ‘til you were gone
Now I’m too awake to move wrong
Closest loss, coldest lesson
Turned my pain to a living weapon
[Verse 2]
I remember your voice
Shakin’, sayin’, “You’ll regret this”
I just laughed, played boy
Actin’ like I’m never desperate
Now your side of the bed
Feel like miles of desert sand
Hear your name in the wind
But I only see my hands
Hands dirty from the deals
From the nights, from the pills
From the pride I would feed
When my heart stayed still
Lost you, lost me
In one slow-motion crash
Now I carve new paths
From the pieces of the past
[Pre-Chorus]
Every shadow in this room
Got a face that I betrayed
Every promise that I broke
Got a price I finally paid
Whispers circlin’ my head
Sound like prayers and like threats
I walk circles in the dark
‘Til I find what’s left
[Chorus]
I had to lose what I loved most
To feel this fire in my bones
Closest loss, coldest lesson
Now it’s war on my old reflection
I never learned ‘til you were gone
Now I’m too awake to move wrong
Closest loss, coldest lesson
Turned my pain to a living weapon
[Bridge]
[Beat drops to low drums and distant chants]
Hear ‘em hum my name
Like a curse, like a cure
I been dragged through the flame
Now my soul feel sure
Mark my skin with the past
Let it fade, let it fade
I don’t bow to my guilt
I just bow when I pray
[Chorus]
I had to lose what I loved most
To feel this fire in my bones
Closest loss, coldest lesson
Now it’s war on my old reflection
I never learned ‘til you were gone
Now I’m too awake to move wrong
Closest loss, coldest lesson
Turned my pain to a living weapon