Losing Control

Rezin Productions…

Cold nights, dead dreams, tryna stay clean

But the world keeps pulling me back to the routine

Got hope in my hands but it slips through the hole

I’m fighting every day but I’m losing control

Grew up learning pain before I learned how to talk

Hard lessons in the alleys where the shadows walk

Tried a straight path, tried to settle down

But the hunger in my stomach always drags me around

Clocked in, clocked out, that paycheck’s thin

Feels like the whole damn world wants me to sin

Bottle to my lips just to quiet my head

These demons play cards while I fold again

I’m running from a past that won’t let go

Every good choice fades like smoke

Trying to climb out but the street’s got a hold

And I’m scared of the man that I’m turning into

I’m losing control, losing my soul

Trying so hard just to break from the mold

But the world keeps dragging me under the flow

And the love of money won’t ever let me go

I’m drowning in lies that I told myself

Reaching for heaven from the edges of hell

Swore I’d change but I lost that role

Now I’m burning alive while I’m losing control

Got a woman at home who still believes

But I see doubt growing every time that I leave

Another long night, another promise I break

Another piece of her heart that I take

Drugs numb the guilt, liquor blurs the truth

I’m losing more now than I ever did in my youth

The stakes keep rising but the streets don’t care

It’ll take your life clean while you’re gasping for air

I’ve been praying for a sign I never see

Trying to save the good left in me

But the past keeps calling me back to the cold

And my future’s slipping right out of my hold

I’m losing control, losing my soul

Trying so hard just to break from the mold

But the world keeps dragging me under the flow

And the love of money won’t ever let me go

I’m drowning in lies that I told myself

Reaching for heaven from the edges of hell

Swore I’d change but I lost that role

Now I’m burning alive while I’m losing control

One last job, one last chance to win

One last roll with the devil again

Told myself “This score sets me free”

But the game’s been writing my fate for me

Blue lights hit, and my heartbeat stops

Hands shaking as the whole world drops

Thought I could run but the streets run faster

Now I’m face to face with my final disaster

Time froze… shadows swallowed my breath

Everything I loved stands inches from death

I hear her crying but her voice grows old

As I fall deeper into the life I sold

(spoken/sung softly, fading into darkness)

Lost my freedom, lost my family, lost control

Lost the last piece of my broken soul

For the love of money, I sold my fate

Now I’m just another ghost behind steel gates

This is the cost of a life gone cold…

This is the price when you’re losing control.