Losing Control

[HOOK – intro]
Rezin Productions…
Cold nights, dead dreams, tryna stay clean
But the world keeps pulling me back to the routine
Got hope in my hands but it slips through the hole
I’m fighting every day but I’m losing control
[VERSE 1]
Grew up learning pain before I learned how to talk
Hard lessons in the alleys where the shadows walk
Tried a straight path, tried to settle down
But the hunger in my stomach always drags me around
Clocked in, clocked out, that paycheck’s thin
Feels like the whole damn world wants me to sin
Bottle to my lips just to quiet my head
These demons play cards while I fold again
[BRIDGE 1 – emotional build]
I’m running from a past that won’t let go
Every good choice fades like smoke
Trying to climb out but the street’s got a hold
And I’m scared of the man that I’m turning into
[CHORUS – epic, heavy, tragic]
I’m losing control, losing my soul
Trying so hard just to break from the mold
But the world keeps dragging me under the flow
And the love of money won’t ever let me go
I’m drowning in lies that I told myself
Reaching for heaven from the edges of hell
Swore I’d change but I lost that role
Now I’m burning alive while I’m losing control
[VERSE 2]
Got a woman at home who still believes
But I see doubt growing every time that I leave
Another long night, another promise I break
Another piece of her heart that I take
Drugs numb the guilt, liquor blurs the truth
I’m losing more now than I ever did in my youth
The stakes keep rising but the streets don’t care
It’ll take your life clean while you’re gasping for air
[BRIDGE 2 – deeper pain, falling apart]
I’ve been praying for a sign I never see
Trying to save the good left in me
But the past keeps calling me back to the cold
And my future’s slipping right out of my hold
[CHORUS – repeat, even more intense]
I’m losing control, losing my soul
Trying so hard just to break from the mold
But the world keeps dragging me under the flow
And the love of money won’t ever let me go
I’m drowning in lies that I told myself
Reaching for heaven from the edges of hell
Swore I’d change but I lost that role
Now I’m burning alive while I’m losing control
[VERSE 3 – the breaking point]
One last job, one last chance to win
One last roll with the devil again
Told myself “This score sets me free”
But the game’s been writing my fate for me
Blue lights hit, and my heartbeat stops
Hands shaking as the whole world drops
Thought I could run but the streets run faster
Now I’m face to face with my final disaster
[FINAL BRIDGE – collapsing]
Time froze… shadows swallowed my breath
Everything I loved stands inches from death
I hear her crying but her voice grows old
As I fall deeper into the life I sold
(spoken/sung softly, fading into darkness)
Lost my freedom, lost my family, lost control
Lost the last piece of my broken soul
For the love of money, I sold my fate
Now I’m just another ghost behind steel gates
This is the cost of a life gone cold…
This is the price when you’re losing control.

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