[Verse 1]
Everyone’s been asking how I've been,
I smile out of habit, hiding the emptiness behind this grin
I've learned to hide the truth like an art.
A quiet lie now replacing my heart.
Every answer is carefully measured,
The truth inside never to be heard.
If i could ever bare to break the silence,
You would say my head is full of nonsense
[Pre-Chorus]
So I'll keep saying what they want to hear,
While I'm fighting not to disappear.
[Chorus]
Yeah... I'm fine.
If F is for finally
I don’t give a fuck what you think of me.
Yeah... I'm fine
If I is for
I'm barely making it through every day.
Yeah... I'm fine
If N is for
No one could ever understand
The war I live in my head.
Yeah... I'm fine
If E is for
Existing in a body that don’t feel like mine
Then yeah...
I'm fine.
[Verse 2]
Every mirror shows someone that I’m not,
Every victory feels not earned but bought.
They clap for someone I don't even know,
Projecting this person they love for show
Every smile coming at a cost,
Cause all I feel is completely lost.
It’s exhausting to pretend
But this facade could never end.
[Pre-Chorus]
If I stopped leaving them blind,
They’d think I’d lost my fucking mind.
[Chorus]
So, Yeah... I'm fine.
If F is for finally
I stopped believing I am okay.
Yeah... I'm fine
If I is for
I'm drowning inside my thoughts every day.
Yeah... I'm fine
If N is for
Noone sees I’ve been sick for awhile,
Behind the jokes and tired smile.
Yeah... I'm fine
If E is for
Every single day I wonder
If I'll ever feel alive.
Yeah...
I'm fine.
[Bridge]
Maybe one day
I won't have to rehearse every conversation.
Maybe one day
My own reflection won't be an accusation.
Maybe one day
I'll believe the love they give is really mine.
Until then...
I'll answer like I always do. I’M FINE!
[Final Chorus]
Yeah... I'm fine.
If F is for finally
I'm done pretending I don't hurt.
Yeah... I'm fine
If I is for
I still hope there's something worth fighting for.
Yeah... I'm fine
If N is for
No, I’m don’t think I’m okay.
Yeah… I’m fine
If E is for
Eventually the struggle just gets easier to hide.
So when you ask me how I've been...
I'll probably smile...
And whisper,
"Yeah... I'm fine."
