[Verse 1]
Ash on my tongue
Old stories on my skin
I tried to bury every night
But they still crawl back in
Hands that I hurt
Names I can’t forget
Every mirror feels like court
And the jury’s in my head
[Chorus]
I’m finding me in the fallout
Breathing slow in the breakdown (oh)
Yeah
I’ve been lost in the worst of it
But I’m still here
I’m still learning from it
World turning hard
I don’t bow
I’m holding on to the right now
I’m not my shame
I’m not my history
I’m scared as hell
But I’m still finding me
[Verse 2]
Heart doing laps
In the middle of the day
Smile for the room
Then I hide in the hallway
Everyone talks
I hear it all at once
Every whisper feels like fire
On the things I’ve done
[Chorus]
I’m finding me in the fallout
Breathing slow in the breakdown (oh)
Yeah
I’ve been lost in the worst of it
But I’m still here
I’m still learning from it
World turning hard
I don’t bow
I’m holding on to the right now
I’m not my shame
I’m not my history
I’m scared as hell
But I’m still finding me
[Bridge]
One good day
Then three go dark
Still I wake up
With this stubborn little spark
I want more
Than pain and apologies
I don’t know happy yet
But I know I want to be (yeah)
[Chorus]
I’m finding me in the fallout
Breathing slow in the breakdown
Yeah
I’ve been lost in the worst of it
But I’m still here
I’m still learning from it
World turning hard
I don’t bow
I’m holding on to the right now
I’m not my past
Not what they choose to see
I’m breaking
Shaking
But I’m still finding me (oh)