(soft, breathy, intimate)
I learned how to speak without saying too much
Turn every truth into “I’m out of touch”
There’s a weight in my chest I dress up as calm
Like breaking in silence is safer than wrong
You look at me like I’m still whole
Like I don’t feel myself letting go
And I don’t know how to explain
Why sunshine still feels like rain
(building tension)
If I start to fade, would you notice me?
Or just the version I pretend to be?
I’m holding on, but barely—
(OPEN, RAW, BELTED)
I’ll hide my goodbye in an apology
Singing “I’m fine” while it’s killing me
Sometimes life cuts deeper than anything else
A quiet kind of hurt you don’t show to no one else
And I’m screaming inside, but I’m whispering “yes”
Sometimes life can be more painful than death
So I’ll give you a smile while I’m breaking in two
’Cause it’s easier than telling the truth
(slightly stronger, still emotional)
There’s a ghost of a kid I used to be
Before the world got heavy on me
Now every hope feels paper-thin
And every breath feels like a sin
I laugh, but it don’t sound right
Like a song that forgot its light
And I hate that you can’t see through
All the ways I’m losing you
(more intensity)
If I disappear in plain sight
Between “I’m okay” and “goodnight”
Would you fight for me… or let me go?
(bigger, more desperate)
I’ll hide my goodbye in an apology
Drown in the words that you hear from me
Sometimes life cuts deeper than anything else
A beautiful lie that I tell to myself
And I’m holding my breath like I’ve nothing left
Sometimes life can be more painful than death
So I’ll give you a smile while I’m breaking in two
’Cause it’s easier than telling the truth
(STRIPPED — almost spoken, like Faouzia-style vulnerability)
I don’t wanna leave…
I just don’t know how to stay
When every piece of me
Is slowly drifting away
If love was enough, I’d be alright
If hope was louder, I’d still fight
But I’m tired… God, I’m tired…
(FULL VOCAL RELEASE — raw, cracked, powerful)
I WON’T hide my goodbye in an apology
I’m done pretending you don’t see
Sometimes life cuts deeper than anything else
And I can’t keep lying to myself
Yeah, I’m screaming it now, no whispers left
Sometimes life can be more painful than death
If I fall apart right here in front of you—
Would you finally see the truth?
(soft, fragile again)
I’ll hide my goodbye… in an apology
Or maybe this time… you’ll hear me
