Inside Me

“You’re not a mistake, you’re a regret

Someone who’d be better off dead”

All the words I’ve heard, the things I’ve said

Still echo in my head

Lying’s easy, “I’m fine” on repeat

While I’m falling apart underneath

What am I doing? Who am I now?

I should’ve been honest somehow

They say I’m useless, full of excuses

Clueless, clueless, clueless

Please, somebody help me

I don’t know what to do

I don’t think I can carry

All I’ve been through

I don’t cry ‘cause I want to

All my tears ran dry

Maybe I’m dramatic

But I’m losing this fight

I’m terrified of what’s inside

So I bury it deep and let it hide

I’m tired of trying to rearrange

Everything about me just to change

Changing who I am feels wrong

But pretending feels just as long

They say I’m useless, making excuses

Clueless, clueless, clueless

(quiet → build)

When I fix one mistake

Fifty more take its place

I don’t know what to say

Other than “Please, go away”

(stronger)

Please, somebody help me

I’m stronger than I seem

I survived betrayal and pain

Even when I couldn’t breathe

I’m still here, still standing

Even after everything

Maybe I’m not broken

Maybe I’m just healing

(gentle but firm)

Do what you want — not what they said

Try your best and move ahead