Inside Me

“You’re not a mistake, you’re a regret
Someone who’d be better off dead”
All the words I’ve heard, the things I’ve said
Still echo in my head

Lying’s easy, “I’m fine” on repeat
While I’m falling apart underneath
What am I doing? Who am I now?
I should’ve been honest somehow

They say I’m useless, full of excuses
Clueless, clueless, clueless

Please, somebody help me
I don’t know what to do
I don’t think I can carry
All I’ve been through

I don’t cry ‘cause I want to
All my tears ran dry
Maybe I’m dramatic
But I’m losing this fight

I’m terrified of what’s inside
So I bury it deep and let it hide
I’m tired of trying to rearrange
Everything about me just to change

Changing who I am feels wrong
But pretending feels just as long

They say I’m useless, making excuses
Clueless, clueless, clueless

(quiet → build)
When I fix one mistake
Fifty more take its place
I don’t know what to say
Other than “Please, go away”

 (stronger)
Please, somebody help me
I’m stronger than I seem
I survived betrayal and pain
Even when I couldn’t breathe

I’m still here, still standing
Even after everything
Maybe I’m not broken
Maybe I’m just healing

 (gentle but firm)
Do what you want — not what they said
Try your best and move ahead

Dark cinematic alt-pop, minimal piano, haunting synths, emotional raw vocals and powerful high notes in the chorus, male