Hard Time

I had a dream to be the perfect son
Had to leave to see I was no one
Maybe I was perfect for just one day
But I’ve accomplished nothing anyway
No matter what they say

I tried to warn them, “This isn’t my life”
I’m not a diamond shining bright
So please just listen, hear the sign
I’m lost at sea, no shore in sight

My eyes are open, don’t try to hide
I’m not in control, but I know what’s inside
I see my friends rising, I’m proud of them
They all ascend — when will I ascend?

I’m all alone, no place called home
Everything’s gone, I’m on my own
Stumbling through ruins I couldn’t save
Every plan I built just decayed

Buried in the weight of what I’ve not done
Measuring myself against everyone
Each breath feels heavier than the last
Like I’m running but stuck in the past

I cheer for them, I mean it too
But when will something break through?

(bigger, emotional lift)
My eyes are open, I see it clear
The fear of failing follows me here
I watch them fly while I remain
Standing still in pouring rain

But maybe this hard time I’m in
Is not the place I’ll always live
Maybe I’m building something slow
Even if it doesn’t show

(soft)
Maybe I’m more than what I’ve done
Maybe I’m still becoming someone

Emotional cinematic pop ballad, piano, atmospheric strings, slow build & powerful soaring high notes in the chorus, male