Hard Time

I had a dream to be the perfect son

Had to leave to see I was no one

Maybe I was perfect for just one day

But I’ve accomplished nothing anyway

No matter what they say

I tried to warn them, “This isn’t my life”

I’m not a diamond shining bright

So please just listen, hear the sign

I’m lost at sea, no shore in sight

My eyes are open, don’t try to hide

I’m not in control, but I know what’s inside

I see my friends rising, I’m proud of them

They all ascend — when will I ascend?

I’m all alone, no place called home

Everything’s gone, I’m on my own

Stumbling through ruins I couldn’t save

Every plan I built just decayed

Buried in the weight of what I’ve not done

Measuring myself against everyone

Each breath feels heavier than the last

Like I’m running but stuck in the past

I cheer for them, I mean it too

But when will something break through?

(bigger, emotional lift)

My eyes are open, I see it clear

The fear of failing follows me here

I watch them fly while I remain

Standing still in pouring rain

But maybe this hard time I’m in

Is not the place I’ll always live

Maybe I’m building something slow

Even if it doesn’t show

(soft)

Maybe I’m more than what I’ve done

Maybe I’m still becoming someone