[Verse 1]
There’s a coffee cup still sitting by the sink
From the night you left in tears and I couldn’t fucking think
And I swear your ghost still walks around this house at night
In every little sound, in every flickering light
I keep your name like a bruise under my tongue
Some wounds don’t heal right no matter how damn young
I tried to drown you out with strangers and smoke
But every laugh feels empty now, every promise feels broke
And everybody says
“Give it time, give it time”
Like time’s ever fixed a thing that’s still alive
[Pre-Chorus]
'Cause you’re not gone to me
Not really
You’re just too far away to touch
And that somehow hurts so much worse
[Chorus]
My head’s on backwards since you’ve been gone
Every road leads nowhere now I’m driving alone
And I still hear your voice when the city goes quiet
Still feel your hands on me when I’m trying not to fight it
Fuck, I miss you
In ways that don’t get better with sleep
I miss who I was when your heart was still mine to keep
And if you still love me
Like I know you do
Then tell me how the hell
I’m supposed to survive missing you
[Verse 2]
I stopped playing our songs for a couple months
But silence got so loud it started fucking me up
Now I let them bleed through every room in this place
Like maybe if I suffer enough you’ll come back someday
And your sweater’s still hanging off the bedroom chair
I tell myself to move it but I leave it there
Because losing you slowly feels easier somehow
Than waking up one morning and admitting you’re gone now
I still talk to you
When I’m drunk
Like your number’s one bad decision away
From fixing everything
[Pre-Chorus]
And maybe that’s pathetic
Maybe I’m insane
But loving you this deeply rewired my fucking brain
[Chorus]
My head’s on backwards since you’ve been gone
Every night’s just another little war to hold on
And I still trace your name through the fog on the window
Like somewhere you can feel me when the cold wind blows
God, I miss you
Like missing air underwater
Like every version of my life collapsed into each other
And if you still love me
Like your eyes used to do
Then tell me why the hell
We’re still living like we’ve got something left to lose
[Bridge]
I’d crawl through broken glass just to hear you laugh again
I’d burn every future I built after you ended
Because none of it means shit if you’re not there too
And people keep saying
“You’ll find somebody else”
But they don’t fucking get it
I don’t want somebody else
I want you
Your tired eyes
Your cold hands
Your midnight crying
Your chaos
Your voice breaking when you said my name softly
I want every ruined piece of us back
[Final Chorus]
My head’s on backwards and my heart won’t shut up
Every memory cuts deeper when the night shows up
And I’d give every goddamn thing just to hold you again
Even for a moment
Even knowing this still ends
Because I still love you
More than my own damn pride
More than sleep
More than breathing
More than trying to survive
And if you’re out there somewhere
Missing me too