[Intro]
[Hook]
(Just remember) all the shoulda coulda woulda's help no one
So instead just do better - from now on
[Verse 1]
Not long ago while I cut my sons hair
We started talking bout past years
& then, he looked into my eyes and said
"Thank you Mum, I love you" - roll down the tears
So,
I apologized for the times I failed him
He replied nah mum, its all good you gave me the freedom
To just, be myself no matter what that was
And not just for me, but for all 3 of us
& that..
[Pre chorus]
that was the most amazing feels
(I cried)
Hearing my son tell me for reals
(His side)
I go from pride to guilt so quick
knowing all the bits, I did so shit
& though I know I tried
Cant stop this feeling inside...
[Chorus]
I wish I could go back, & show up the way I know now I should
But instead I gotta hope they know I did what I could
The shame the guilt I wasnt there I wasnt good
If a chance came to take it back, do it again - you know that
I fucken would! If I could..
[Verse 2][female rap]
Its never too late to show up for your kid
Even if they've left home
They'll always remember the times you did
Good & the times they were left alone
When instead they needed you there
But you werent you were nowhere
Childhood imprints the brain
Adulthood footprints can be retrained
So even though you cant go back & change the past mistakes you made
Where you fucked up, dissappeared not show up when they felt afraid
Step up, be consistent, its never too late
Show up how you wished you had back then
Its not the fall its the rise from the ash state
The pasts guilt can cripple, so instead - choose redemption
[Chorus]
[Final Hook]
But instead
I have to get it in my head
That all the shoulda coulda woulda's help no one
All I can do is just do better from now on
[Bridge]
I look back to the past 20 years
Thats when I became a mum
I had no idea I'd end up here
41 with a daughter & 2 sons
[Final chorus]
I wanna go back, show up then, the way I know now I should
And I gotta hope they know I did what I could
The shame the guilt I wasnt there I wasnt good
I hope for a chance to take it all back you know that I would - if I could..
[Final Hook]
[Outro][female rap][melodic layers][adlib][melodic backing]
Step up, be consistent, its never too late
Show up how you wished you had back then
Its not the fall its the rise from the ash state
The pasts guilt can cripple, so instead - choose redemption [fade]
And remember all the shoulda coulda woulda's help no one
So instead just do better from now on
[Quiet][heartfelt]
[Mom] "I Love you son"
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