[Intro][gangsta trap]
Feeling betrayed
By those supposed
To keep me safe
Those close to me leave
& not stay
When I need them
Cos I'm strugglin
When I'm bleedin
I got nothin
No partner no family nobody
Comin, Noone tellin me
I'll be ok
To say everything's ok
The shittiest place to be alone
Is suicidal. & alone
[Hook 1]
Its no surprise
How many people die
From suicide
Cos who comes
help the one
Who's the one to come
When you need someone
NO ONE
[Verse]
I dont wanna die
& no matter how hard I try
To regulate while my
Body feels like a hostage in an evil & volatile
space, Ive never seen
Never been
In this place
Aware with so much pain
Fucks with my brain
In so many ways
Im so scared of this maze thing
Im going crazy
Get me out
Please someone help
Im drowning in overwhelm
An Ocean with 100 meter swell
I know I'm unwell
& I can't swim
my Nervous system
has hollowed out my insides
So now Im just a shell
3 years ago
I tried get help
Asked people that already kinda meet
What I need
Their replies
Were Empty
(So)
[Hook 1]
[Verse]
So you lay there
With open wounds
deep yet easy enough to repair
If only a person that cared was there
To help you
In this Traumatic thing youre going through
Cos your brain your heart your everything
Hurts so fucken bad & wont stop bleeding
But what you needs just out of reach
Like a meter or 2 from you
If you could you would
At least try to
Fix yourself cos its not
often you need to
Or have to rely
& need them to reply
Cos usually you manage to get by
On your own
thats why
Its a shock when you phone
or text to say
" hey, Im not ok. I need help"
Lifes piling up
Too much
I dont trust myself
Or anyone else
to meet my needs,
actually help me
So I dont just switch from my fight into my freeze
Otherwise
I just give up on me
[Music]
Gotta hope
Someone comes who knows
How to help me cope
& stop the slope
Toward that sharp thing or the rope
Or pills to overdose
Been 41 years of lows, so bad
The highs last less than half that
That's why
Id rather die
Not just survive
Livin a life
In fear
Of another 41 years
Alive
Livin in fear
I wish at times
For a stroke
Or cancer or in a permanent comatose
Its fucked up where my mind goes
But its how I show
how much pain I live with & why
I keep reaching out for help
To 1, 2, 4 or 5
People I hope want me alive
(But)
[Hook 2]
no surprise
hours go by
Its no wonder why
Numbers are so high
All the lives
we lose to
Suicide
[Bridge]
Why bother educating
Waste our time & energy explaining
Signs of the most likely to become
A suicidal victim
Cos Awareness
is 1 part of 3
It needs to be paired with
Checking in on anybody
who mentions
Constant stressful situations or depression
& dont judge or question
If they're just seeking attention
Any threat of self harm
Is enough of a sign, an alarm
To go see them or call a professional
Just dont do nothing
at all
[Hook 1]
[Hook 2]
[Outro]
Ask people if theyre ok
It could save somebody today
Tomorrow follow up with hello
It could matter more than you will ever know
WorldsDrone08
