I'm Okay

mm-mm

say it with a smile now

“I’m okay”

funny how I dodge every question

change the subject naturally

laugh a little, act distracted

and nobody looks too deep

I learned how to sound convincing

how to keep the panic small

while my whole mind caves inward

behind a casual “it’s all good” wall

and honestly?

people hear what comforts them

they’d rather believe I’m stable

than ask where my head’s been

I got too good at hiding pain

now nobody sees me bleed

I’m okay

(that’s what I say)

while my soul rots quietly

I’m okay

(fake smile, black eyes)

breaking down invisibly

whole room screaming

while I fade into the walls

everybody hears me laughing

nobody hears the fall

oh-oh

I make sadness look aesthetic

(aesthetic tragedy)

yeah-yeah

like my breakdown’s just part of me

I’m okay…

at least that’s what I tell everybody

(la-la-la)

dead girl walking softly

(la-la-la)

nobody notices me

I think people like me better

when I’m quiet and easy to hold

less emotional

less complicated

less honest about feeling cold

because the second darkness shows through

people get uncomfortable fast

so I learned to romanticise pain

and hide inside the aftermath

and honestly?

I’m exhausted from surviving

from carrying this emptiness around

while pretending I’m thriving

you can drown slowly for years

and still look beautiful doing it

I’m okay

(that’s what I say)

while my head tears me apart nightly

I’m okay

(pale skin, tired eyes)

living like a ghost behind me

whole room screaming

while I disappear again

everybody loves the version of me

that never lets them in

oh-oh

I turned pain into an outfit

(outfit made of scars)

yeah-yeah

now nobody asks who I really are

I’m okay…

and nobody questions it anymore

sometimes I wish somebody

would hear the pause

before I say “I’m fine”

because maybe then

they’d realise

I stopped meaning it years ago

I’m okay

(that’s what I say)

while emotionally disappearing

I’m okay

(black heart, shut down)

smiling while the end gets near me

whole world moving

while I fade out slowly

everybody thinks they know me

but nobody really knows me

oh-oh

I made pain look pretty somehow

(pretty little tragedy)

yeah-yeah

maybe that’s why nobody saved me

I’m okay…

and that’s the lie killing me softly

say it again

“I’m okay”

mm-mm

maybe one day I’ll believe it too