I Just Go Quiet

mm-mm (oh-oh)

I’m still here

just not fully here

don’t talk to me (shh)

I’m not really here right now

everything too loud again (too loud)

even silence feels like noise (noise)

I don’t wanna explain myself (no no)

I don’t have the words or voice

heart heavy in my chest (in my chest)

like I’m sinking through the floor

I just stare at nothing

until I’m not in it anymore

headphones on, world fades (fade away)

everything feels too close again

messages I don’t reply to (leave it)

stacking up like weight on skin

breathing shallow, mind loud (too loud)

trying not to fall apart now

I’m not okay but I’m not gone (not gone)

just stuck somewhere in between it all

I don’t need fixing (no)

I just need space to breathe

just space to breathe

I can’t face life right now (oh-oh)

so I disappear in my mind

(I can’t face it)

let the noise all pass me by

don’t ask me to explain it

I don’t have the words tonight

I’m just trying to survive it

one quiet moment at a time

I just go quiet (quiet)

when my head starts spinning too fast

(I go quiet)

trying not to break at last

(mm-mm) leave me in the silence

(oh-oh) I don’t feel alright

(mm-mm) don’t pull me back yet

(yeah-yeah) I’m just out of sight

everything’s too sharp lately (sharp)

even thoughts feel too loud

so I pull away from everything

just to calm myself down

I just want to disappear

I just need to step away

before my mind turns everything

into something I can’t explain

and maybe that’s okay

to not be okay out loud

just sitting in the moment

until it softens somehow

not running away (no no)

just trying to steady myself

I can’t face life right now (oh-oh)

so I drift out of my mind

(I can’t face it)

let the pressure fall behind

don’t need answers, don’t need words

I just need it all to slow

I’m still here but out of reach

somewhere nobody can go

oh-oh

it’s not forever, I know that

(I know that)

yeah-yeah

but it still feels like it is

I just go quiet… (quiet)

when I can’t handle what it is

(quiet, quiet) I go silent in the noise

(quiet, quiet) till I find my voice

(mm-mm) I’m still breathing under it

(oh-oh) I don’t disappear

mm-mm (mm-mm)

I don’t leave

I just fade for a bit

mm-mm (mm-mm)

not gone

just overwhelmed in it

breathing in… breathing out…

wait for the sound to drop

mm-mm

I’ll come back

when my mind stops