Not Back Yet

mm...

I'm awake

(breathe...)

but I'm not back yet

Heart still racing in the dark

Like something's standing in the room

I know it's gone but it feels too close

Like it followed me back through

I try to move but I'm not steady

Hands don't feel like they belong

Everything I saw is fading

But the feeling's still so strong

(not again...)

Tell me it wasn't real

(please...)

Tell me I'm here

I just woke up from a nightmare

But my body didn't get the message

Still shaking like I'm in danger

Even though there's nothing there

(nothing there...)

I'm trying to breathe it out slow

Trying to come back down

But I'm halfway in that darkness

Even though I'm out

Room is quiet, lights are normal

Everything should feel okay

But my mind keeps replaying pieces

That I can't seem to erase

I reach out just to feel something

Anything that's real and mine

Cause I don't trust the silence yet

Not after that kind of night

I know I'm safe

(I know...)

I just don't feel it yet

I just woke up from a nightmare

But it didn't let me go clean

Still got shadows in my heartbeat

Still stuck somewhere I've been

I'm trying to breathe it out slow

Trying to find my name again

But my mind is still half running

From a place I left in sleep

It'll pass

I know it will

But right now I'm still caught in it

I just need a second

Just a second to come back

I just woke up from a nightmare

And I know it's not real anymore

But my body doesn't listen

It remembers what it felt before

I'm coming back slowly

Bit by bit to the light

I just woke up from a nightmare

And I'm still alright

(am I...?)

mm...

I'm here

I'm here

(breathe...)