Invisible Scars

mm-mm

I think I disappeared a long time ago

people just didn’t notice

room full of voices around me

but they all blur into noise

I sit there smiling automatically

while trying not to break apart quietly

and nobody sees it happen

because I learned how to hide pain well

learned how to look functional

while mentally going through hell

teenage me used to hurt loudly

now I just disappear inside my head

same darkness underneath me

just hidden better instead

it’s terrifying

feeling lonely in a crowded room

I feel invisible

like nobody looks long enough

(invisible)

to notice I’m barely holding up

whole room screaming over me

while I drown without a sound

standing right beside everybody

and still never getting found

oh-oh

I’m fading slowly in plain sight

(fading slowly)

yeah-yeah

and nobody notices till I go quiet

I feel invisible

like I could disappear tonight

(la-la-la)

would anybody notice?

(la-la-la)

or just move around it?

I think people love the version of me

that asks for nothing at all

the easy version

the quiet version

the one that doesn’t fall

because the second pain gets visible

people get uncomfortable fast

so I learned to carry suffering

silently through the aftermath

and honestly?

I’m exhausted from surviving

from dragging myself through days

I secretly don’t wanna live in

there’s nights I feel so empty

I physically ache with it

like my soul’s collapsing inward

piece by piece by piece

I keep screaming internally

while everybody hears silence

I feel invisible

like my hurt doesn’t count somehow

(invisible)

like I disappear inside crowds

I feel invisible

whole chest underwater now

trying to breathe normally

while mentally breaking down

oh-oh

I’m drowning without making waves

(drowning quietly)

yeah-yeah

because nobody notices silent pain

I feel invisible

even to myself these days

I wasn’t crazy

I was hurting

there’s a difference

people judged the scars

without understanding

what caused them

I don’t want attention

I want someone

to notice I’m not okay

before I completely disappear into myself

I feel invisible

standing in the middle of the room

(invisible)

while everybody looks straight through

I feel invisible

like I’m fading more every night

trying so hard to survive

while something inside me dies

oh-oh

I wish somebody noticed for real

(noticed for real)

yeah-yeah

before I vanish completely into myself

I feel invisible…

but I’m still here somehow

room full of people screaming

and nobody hears me cry

mm-mm

maybe I was invisible the whole time