[Intro]
mm-mm
you know the easy parts of me
not the ones I hide at 2am
[Verse 1]
you say I’m funny
say I make everything lighter
but you don’t see me staring at the ceiling
trying to survive my own mind quieter
you know soft voice / fast replies
the version that jokes through everything
not the girl who disappears for days
when life gets too heavy again
I wonder if you’d feel different
if you saw the unedited me
not the calm filtered version
the one underneath everything
[Pre-Chorus]
cause people love you easiest
when you’re easy to hold
[Chorus]
if you knew the full messy version of me
would you still stay?
(still stay?)
if you saw every hidden part emotionally
would you pull away?
if my silence got darker
if my mind got hard to read
would you still call me amazing
or slowly stop choosing me?
oh-oh
I think about it constantly
(constantly)
yeah-yeah
how long until I become too much?
if you knew everything…
would you still stay?
[Post-Chorus]
(mm-mm)
you see the bright side
(oh-oh)
not the breakdown behind it
[Verse 2]
I learned early
people leave when things get difficult
so now I hide half my feelings
to seem less emotional
and maybe that’s why
care feels dangerous to me still
cause every soft thing I’ve touched before
eventually disappeared
you say “message or call whenever”
like you actually mean it too
and my chest goes tight a little
cause I’m not used to people like you
[Pre-Chorus]
I want closeness badly
then panic when it gets real
[Chorus]
if you knew the full messy version of me
would you still stay?
(still stay?)
if you heard every thought that keeps me awake
would your feelings change?
if I stopped masking everything
if I let the sadness show
would you still notice when I vanish
like you always seem to know?
oh-oh
it scares me how safe you feel
(safe you feel)
yeah-yeah
cause safe never lasted before
if you knew everything…
would you still stay?
[Bridge]
maybe I’m waiting
for you to become like everybody else
[Chorus]
if you knew the full messy version of me
all the fear / all the damage too
would you still sit in silence with me
like you always do?
cause I’m trying to believe
I don’t have to hide to be loved
trying to believe
being difficult doesn’t make me unworthy of it
oh-oh
maybe one day I’ll stop asking this
(stop asking this)
yeah-yeah
maybe one day staying won’t scare me so much
if you knew everything…
would you still stay?
[Outro]
mm-mm
what if you knew me fully
and stayed anyway?
Beexii