Lips

Not having those curves your lips made when you would smile. It is killing me we have been apart for awhile too long. Seeing you with a new dawn. Knowing I won't ever be in that presence leave the air feeling heavy. Caught up in the past because I can't stand the present on a heart break journey. Drinking shot and bottle after a another. Hoping I can stop thinking back to the neon blue light two stepping on that face. You are the only one who I want. I know you don't feel the same. Why does it hurt like this. You made me feel 6 feet underneath the dirt. When you said me and you aren't going to work. You weren't at a fork in the road you just choose to let go with ease. I tried to replace you but I miss you taste far too much. Being asked what would I like to see. I already saw the world but why did you have to leave me. Now any time your name comes up all hope of getting over you gets used up. Feelin like I am at the end of my rope. I keep telling myself it is over but my heart don't want it to be. Free me from your memory please. I dive in the top shelf thinking it will help. It only ever numbs the pain. I live in the past so much its hard to stay sane. You are my migraine on my brain all the damn time. Why does saying goodbye hurt this much. I drink all these bottles but it won't help none. With every shot glass I run and hide from this pain. Remembering and missing the taste of your kiss. I feel so hopeless I can't fix what you broke. I have tried to put myself back together but I am missing a piece and it is hell. I just don't have a heart that will let the past be the past. Can you please ease up with the vice grip you have on me. Making me questioning my own sanity. On the break of death. Feelin like this time apart has been my last breaths.