Stay

Sitting on the beach

My toes in the sand

Hand on my heart remembering when

When I was younger

And didn’t have to think about

How I was gonna make it

I miss being innocent

I miss feeling like I could face anything

I believed in love

Believed everyone had my best interest

I trusted without question

Oh-uh oh oh

When I was 10 the cracks in my life finally broke me, was torn from my world.

I fell through the sparks into the dark

My world shattered and I lost so much

I’m still healing from the pain that caused

And I don’t trust anymore

I try to

It’s not the way it was before

Getting used to the feeling of tears running down my face

Sometimes I don’t even notice when I cry it’s just part of my days

I find solace in the darkness

Outside on a windy night, where I can see all the stars in the sky

No one around

I can’t cry in front of people I know

I can’t let them know I’m falling apart

Have to learn how to be strong.

I can’t break again still haven’t healed myself

And almost no one knows

The few that do avoid the problem

And I don’t know if that makes it better or worse

I like to picture the days when I wasn’t afraid

I had so many plans

So many dreams in my heart

Now I’m lucky if I’m still hanging on by the end of the day

Just keep moving, they tell me it’ll be okay.

And I don’t go to therapy they never help me.

I’ll tell them my problem what happens in my days. They tell me they’re sorry but don’t have any advice for me. Last one told me she couldn’t help me and left like everyone else does to me.

When will I find, someone to stay.

Will I be alright

Or will I always be right about to break.

Tell me I’m not alone

They do I don’t believe em cause that’s what everyone says

I need someone who can show it

Stop talking start moving

Don’t lie to my face

Stop making promises you can’t keep

At least be honest if your gonna leave