Sitting on the beach
My toes in the sand
Hand on my heart remembering when
When I was younger
And didn’t have to think about
How I was gonna make it
I miss being innocent
I miss feeling like I could face anything
I believed in love
Believed everyone had my best interest
I trusted without question
Oh-uh oh oh
When I was 10 the cracks in my life finally broke me, was torn from my world.
I fell through the sparks into the dark
My world shattered and I lost so much
I’m still healing from the pain that caused
And I don’t trust anymore
I try to
It’s not the way it was before
Getting used to the feeling of tears running down my face
Sometimes I don’t even notice when I cry it’s just part of my days
I find solace in the darkness
Outside on a windy night, where I can see all the stars in the sky
No one around
I can’t cry in front of people I know
I can’t let them know I’m falling apart
Have to learn how to be strong.
I can’t break again still haven’t healed myself
And almost no one knows
The few that do avoid the problem
And I don’t know if that makes it better or worse
I like to picture the days when I wasn’t afraid
I had so many plans
So many dreams in my heart
Now I’m lucky if I’m still hanging on by the end of the day
Just keep moving, they tell me it’ll be okay.
And I don’t go to therapy they never help me.
I’ll tell them my problem what happens in my days. They tell me they’re sorry but don’t have any advice for me. Last one told me she couldn’t help me and left like everyone else does to me.
When will I find, someone to stay.
Will I be alright
Or will I always be right about to break.
Tell me I’m not alone
They do I don’t believe em cause that’s what everyone says
I need someone who can show it
Stop talking start moving
Don’t lie to my face
Stop making promises you can’t keep
At least be honest if your gonna leave