In my head

On the bathroom floor again.

Screaming with my hands on my head.

It’s getting loud again.

Oh oh oh-uh oh

Beating myself up in my mind, Intrusive thoughts are winning this time.

Telling me who are you? How dare you think that you can be something amazing.

You’re falling behind watching everyone else make it.

Another day laughing with my friends. I stay out late but it’s just a distraction. I get home and I’m alone. I hate the quiet cause I start thinking.

Lost in my thoughts I don’t wanna go down this rabbit hole again. Save me from myself. I’d rather be someone else.

Oh it’s to loud inside my head and all these walls feels like they’re staring me down.

Cause I’m falling behind everyone else. Watching them fly while I hate myself.

When will I learn to be enough for me? Why can’t I make up my mind. Can’t make a decision please I don’t wanna be alone tonight.

My heads to loud can’t turn it down someone save me from myself.

I’m lost on my own, I need someone to hold my hand teach me how to love myself. I can give my heart to anyone except for me.

Laying in bed staring at the ceiling lost again don’t know how long it’s been from noon to 3 to 1 am still laying here in my head. Replaying everything I’ve done wrong and all the reasons I’m to far gone. I need someone to pull me out of my own head. Teach me how to reach out instead of falling in.