Apology

Mother, I’m sorry I’m not what you expected

Father, I’m sorry I’m not what you wanted

I’m not the only one who needs time to think

I’m not the only one who feels on the brink

But if I disappeared, would you understand?

I’m scared of the future I can’t command

Haunted by echoes of my past

Terrified nothing good will last

So why am I the one criticized?

Does anybody care for a human life?

Am I overthinking? Is it in my mind?

Am I sinking — or are you just blind?

You thought I was flawless

But I’m no princess

I fall, I break

You love me on your terms for your own sake

I still resent you for what you’ve done

All this time — was it fun?

You said you’d always be right there

But were you ever really there?

If I vanished, would you see

The weight you handed down to me?

So why am I the one who bends?

Why does the blame never end?

Am I broken? Am I wrong?

Or have I been carrying this too long?

(quiet → build)

Is this apology or a warning sign?

Is the fracture yours or mine?

Maybe I’m cold, frozen through

But I learned that cold from you

(bigger, emotional release)

If I fall, will you come?

Or just say what I’ve become?

Are my flaws really that bad?

Is it wrong just to feel sad?

(bitter-sweet)

No matter the distance

No matter the weather

We’re tied together

For worse… or forever