The First to Say Sorry

Playing with my feelings, playing with my heart
Pushing me away, breaking me from the start
I went on a quest to understand
How “I love you” slips through trembling hands

Nothing’s better than doing nothing together
Your eyes told the truth, they’ll haunt me forever
You lied like breathing, effortless and slow
I kept moving forward, you wouldn’t let go

I searched for answers in the quiet
While you hid behind your silence

The first to say sorry is the bravest
The first to forgive is the strongest
The first to forget is the happiest
But I’m still standing, holding this sadness

I’m not afraid of falling again
Just afraid I’m the only one who did

The worst part is the love was real
But we were too young to know how to heal
I see myself in your fear and flaws
Still, I’m the one left with the scars

Your eyes never lied, they showed what you’d hide
Still, I was left behind in your pride
I’m not afraid to love, just scared to lose
You couldn’t say no, now I’m left confused

Your silence hit harder than goodbye
Some truths hurt more when you don’t deny

The first to say sorry is the bravest
The first to forgive is the strongest
The first to forget is the happiest
But I’m still standing, holding this sadness

I’m not afraid of falling again
Just afraid I was alone back then

You left me wondering how it would go
Away, away—but I’ll never know
Your silence was the sharpest blow
Now I’m learning to let you go

That shot was cruel but effective
Your type of fire met my electric
It left me bent, it left me defective
Still they say I did nothing wrong

But I’ll keep writing, I’ll keep believing
I’ll keep healing as I finish this song

(soft → full)
The first to say sorry is the bravest
Maybe one day I’ll be the strongest
The first to forget is the happiest
I’m getting closer, I feel it happen

I’m not afraid of love again
Just afraid I loved alone back then

I’m letting go, I’m moving on
Still writing truth until it’s gone

Emotional indie pop ballad, gentle piano, soft guitar, slow build, heartfelt vocals, bittersweet and reflective, male