Guess I’m to Blame

I buy too many books, leave them unread
Hoping one might explain what’s in your head
I chase old ghosts, get stuck in the past
Say I’m okay, but it never lasts

I should be moving on by now
But I don’t know how

Every road just leads to you
No matter what I try to do

I guess I’m to blame for still missing you
For holding my breath, hoping you do too
I should hate you, I should let go
But something in me just won’t say no
I guess I’m to blame for loving you still

I dream of waking up liking what I see
But the mirror just laughs, “not this week”
I try to move on, but no one’s the same
Maybe it’s not them — maybe I’m to blame

Should I surrender to being alone?
Trying too hard just to be enough
If I was everything I claim to be
Why wasn’t I what you could love?

I twist the truth inside my mind
Make your leaving my design

I guess I’m to blame for still missing you
For tracing the shape of what we knew
I should hate you, I should let go
But something in me won’t let it go
I guess I’m to blame for loving you still

(soft, honest)
Maybe you left ‘cause people do
Maybe it wasn’t all about you
Maybe love just fades sometimes
Without a villain, without a crime

But it’s easier to blame myself
Than admit you loved someone else

(emotional lift)
I guess I’m to blame for breaking in two
For building a world that never came true
I should hate you, I should let go
But loving you’s all I seem to know
I guess I’m to blame…
For loving you still

 (quiet)
Or maybe I just loved you real

Stripped piano ballad with intimate soft verses and powerful sustained high belts, emotional and dramatic, male