Guess I’m to Blame

I buy too many books, leave them unread

Hoping one might explain what’s in your head

I chase old ghosts, get stuck in the past

Say I’m okay, but it never lasts

I should be moving on by now

But I don’t know how

Every road just leads to you

No matter what I try to do

I guess I’m to blame for still missing you

For holding my breath, hoping you do too

I should hate you, I should let go

But something in me just won’t say no

I guess I’m to blame for loving you still

I dream of waking up liking what I see

But the mirror just laughs, “not this week”

I try to move on, but no one’s the same

Maybe it’s not them — maybe I’m to blame

Should I surrender to being alone?

Trying too hard just to be enough

If I was everything I claim to be

Why wasn’t I what you could love?

I twist the truth inside my mind

Make your leaving my design

I guess I’m to blame for still missing you

For tracing the shape of what we knew

I should hate you, I should let go

But something in me won’t let it go

I guess I’m to blame for loving you still

(soft, honest)

Maybe you left ‘cause people do

Maybe it wasn’t all about you

Maybe love just fades sometimes

Without a villain, without a crime

But it’s easier to blame myself

Than admit you loved someone else

(emotional lift)

I guess I’m to blame for breaking in two

For building a world that never came true

I should hate you, I should let go

But loving you’s all I seem to know

I guess I’m to blame…

For loving you still

(quiet)

Or maybe I just loved you real