Rot while i wait

[Verse 1]
They fed me hope like it was holy bread
Said, “Just hold on, your time’s ahead”
But I’ve been starving at a table set
With empty plates and hollow threats

Every second cuts a little deeper in
Like time’s a blade beneath my skin
I hear “be patient,” like a lullaby
While something in me slowly dies

[Pre-Chorus]
Faith tastes bitter on a broken tongue
How long do I pretend I’m strong?

[Chorus]
They say good things come to those who wait
But I’ve been chained to a rusted fate
Hands bleeding out from holding tight
To promises that never arrive
If it’s coming, why’s it feel so fake?
Why does hope just suffocate?
I still believe—but it feels like a mistake
All these good things that come when you wait

[Verse 2]
I watched the world get what I begged for loud
While I stood silent in a screaming crowd
Same prayers, same wounds, same empty sky
Same God that never replied

Dreams decay like flowers in a grave
Buried alive by the time I gave
I tried to trust there’s a reason why
But reasons don’t keep you alive

[Pre-Chorus]
Hope’s just a ghost I can’t outrun
It haunts me more than being numb

[Chorus]
They say good things come to those who wait
But I’m collapsing under all this weight
Back breaking slow from standing still
While life just passes at its will
If it’s coming, why’s it so delayed?
Why does waiting feel like a grave?
I still believe—but it’s starting to cave
All these good things that come when you wait

[Bridge]
What if waiting is just wasting breath?
A slower version of giving up to death?
What if the light they promised me
Is just another lie I can’t unsee?

I’m losing pieces I can’t replace
Just trying to keep my spot in place
Tell me—how much of me should I erase
Before I’m “worthy” of better days?

[Final Chorus]
They say good things come to those who wait
But I’m losing blood at heaven’s gate
Knees on the ground, hands to the sky
Still no answer, still no sign
If it’s coming, will I even remain?
Or just a shadow shaped like pain?
I still believe—but it’s twisted, it’s frayed
All these good things… that come when you wait

[Outro]
I’m not growing… I’m just staying
Not living… just decaying
If this is patience… it’s a cage
And I’ve been rotting while I wait…**

rap, Slow dark ambient trap bed, male & female vocals trading rap verses. Droning pads, distant choral textures, subby 8