[Intro]
(single piano note, strings slowly rise)
[Verse 1]
I’ve been searching for a version of myself I’ve never seen
Something in between who I am and what I should have been
Born into a story I was never given pages to
Handed off before I could ever ask the reason who
Makes a choice like that, who decides that you’re not worth the stay
Who signs on the line and just gives themselves permission to walk away
From the ones who raised me to the ones who let me go
I keep asking why I’m always the last one to know
[Hook]
Why wasn’t I enough
That’s the question underneath it all
Been asking since before I ever learned to talk
Why wasn’t I enough
Never found the answer in these walls
So I just keep walking
[Verse 2]
I go cold before you get the chance to leave me first
Learned early that the people closest always hurt the worst
So I keep a certain distance feel it forming like a wall
Give you just enough to keep you but not enough to fall
I’ve been watching other people fit inside their lives
Like they know exactly where they are and where their story lies
Still searching through the pages of a book I didn’t write
For a name that feels like mine and not a borrowed life
[Bridge]
(sparse — piano only)
I look at my own kids
And I feel it different now
How does anyone give this away
I can’t figure out how
I love them like the air in my chest
Like the only thing I know
So why was I the kind of thing
That someone let go
[Chorus]
I’ve been outside looking in my whole life
Never sure which side of the glass is mine
Searching for a face in every crowd
That looks a little like the one I see
When I’m alone at night
Just me and everything I can’t figure out
Been searching
Still searching
[Final Bridge]
(strings swell)
I’m not angry anymore
At least that’s what I tell myself
I’m not searching like I used to
At least that’s what I say out loud
But somewhere in the quiet
When nobody else is around
That question finds me every single time
Why wasn’t I enough
[Outro]
(piano fading)
I don’t know who I came from
I don’t know what that means
I just know who I’m building
And who I’m trying to be
For them
That has to be enough
That’s all I’ve got
