I miss my only friend

(Verse 1)
There’s a voice in my head, yeah, it sings me to sleep
Knows the things that I hide, knows the cuts that I keep
Yeah it drags me through hell, but its the only one who stays till the end
Only thing that ain’t left me… my closest friend

We laugh in the dark, yeah we dance in my pain
It tells me I’m broken but I still feel sane
Says “don’t trust nobody, they all gonna leave”
And somehow that lie’s the only truth I believe

(Pre-Chorus)
They say “take this, you’ll finally feel okay”
But okay feels like you fading away

(Chorus)
These pills make it quiet, but I miss the laugh
Of the only damn voice that was holding me down
Yeah it hurt me, yeah it lied, yeah it tore me apart
But it stayed when there was nobody else in my heart
Now the silence is loud, yeah it’s screaming again
‘Cause the meds took away my only friend
I’m supposed to feel better, that’s what they said
So why do I miss the voice in my head?

(Verse 2)
Now the nights feel empty, like a house burned down
No chaos, no echoes, just a hollowed-out sound
I should feel peace, I should finally breathe
But I don’t feel nothing… and that terrifies me

Was it love or a sickness I learned to defend?
Was it killing me slow or just helping me bend?
‘Cause the pain had a face, had a name, had a place
Now I’m lost in the quiet I can’t even trace

(Pre-Chorus)
They said “this is healing, this is what you need”
But healing shouldn’t feel like losing me

(Chorus)
These pills make it quiet, but I miss the sound
Of the only damn voice that was holding me down
Yeah it hurt me, yeah it lied, yeah it tore me apart
But it stayed when there was nobody else in my heart
Now the silence is loud, yeah it’s screaming again
‘Cause the meds took away my only friend
I’m supposed to feel better, that’s what doc said
So why do I miss the voice in my head?

(Bridge)
If I stop, will it come back home?
Or was it never mine to own?
Was it me… or something wrong?
Why does losing it feel like I’m gone?

(Breakdown)
Talk to me…
Say something…
Even if it breaks me…
At least I’m not nothing…

(Final Chorus)
These pills make it quiet, now I’m lost in the calm
No chaos to hold, no voice in my arms
I used to be broken but I knew who I was
Now I’m just a stranger without a cause
They call this peace, but it feels like the end
Of the war that I fought with my only friend
If this is healing, I don’t understand…
Why I’d give up my voice… just to live in this land

(Outro)
There’s a silence so deep I can’t fight it or flee…
I killed the voice… or it was me…

Slow Lofi sad and haunting reverb