I miss my only friend

(Verse 1)

There’s a voice in my head, yeah, it sings me to sleep

Knows the things that I hide, knows the cuts that I keep

Yeah it drags me through hell, but its the only one who stays till the end

Only thing that ain’t left me… my closest friend

We laugh in the dark, yeah we dance in my pain

It tells me I’m broken but I still feel sane

Says “don’t trust nobody, they all gonna leave”

And somehow that lie’s the only truth I believe

(Pre-Chorus)

They say “take this, you’ll finally feel okay”

But okay feels like you fading away

(Chorus)

These pills make it quiet, but I miss the laugh

Of the only damn voice that was holding me down

Yeah it hurt me, yeah it lied, yeah it tore me apart

But it stayed when there was nobody else in my heart

Now the silence is loud, yeah it’s screaming again

‘Cause the meds took away my only friend

I’m supposed to feel better, that’s what they said

So why do I miss the voice in my head?

(Verse 2)

Now the nights feel empty, like a house burned down

No chaos, no echoes, just a hollowed-out sound

I should feel peace, I should finally breathe

But I don’t feel nothing… and that terrifies me

Was it love or a sickness I learned to defend?

Was it killing me slow or just helping me bend?

‘Cause the pain had a face, had a name, had a place

Now I’m lost in the quiet I can’t even trace

(Pre-Chorus)

They said “this is healing, this is what you need”

But healing shouldn’t feel like losing me

(Chorus)

These pills make it quiet, but I miss the sound

Of the only damn voice that was holding me down

Yeah it hurt me, yeah it lied, yeah it tore me apart

But it stayed when there was nobody else in my heart

Now the silence is loud, yeah it’s screaming again

‘Cause the meds took away my only friend

I’m supposed to feel better, that’s what doc said

So why do I miss the voice in my head?

(Bridge)

If I stop, will it come back home?

Or was it never mine to own?

Was it me… or something wrong?

Why does losing it feel like I’m gone?

(Breakdown)

Talk to me…

Say something…

Even if it breaks me…

At least I’m not nothing…

(Final Chorus)

These pills make it quiet, now I’m lost in the calm

No chaos to hold, no voice in my arms

I used to be broken but I knew who I was

Now I’m just a stranger without a cause

They call this peace, but it feels like the end

Of the war that I fought with my only friend

If this is healing, I don’t understand…

Why I’d give up my voice… just to live in this land

(Outro)

There’s a silence so deep I can’t fight it or flee…

I killed the voice… or it was me…