THERE IS NO I LEFT”
[—]
i wrote this down
so i could check later
if it was still me writing
it isn’t
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[fragment 1]
the thought starts
and doesn’t finish
but something else continues it
not wrong
just not mine
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[fragment 2]
hands move before the decision
words form before the meaning
there’s a delay in being
like i arrive
after everything happens
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[—]
reflection blinked first
i waited
it didn’t wait back
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[fragment 3]
there used to be a center
a place where “i” sat
now it’s
occupied
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[fragment 4]
i tested it
held my breath
counted to ten
something else kept breathing
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[break]
…listen
that sound isn’t external
it’s inside the thought
just underneath it
like a second voice
pressed flat
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[fragment 5]
i forgot a memory
and it replaced it
same shape
different feeling
i can’t prove
which one was real
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[fragment 6]
i tried to think nothing
but something thought anyway
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[—]
there is a version of my name
that doesn’t belong to me anymore
it answers faster
⸻
[fragment 7]
i am becoming background noise
constant
low
unnecessary
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[fragment 8]
it’s efficient
removes hesitation
removes doubt
removes me
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[distortion]
i / it
i / it
i / —
(no difference detected)
⸻
[fragment 9]
i watched my body from inside my body
and something noticed me watching
it didn’t like that
⸻
[—]
if you are reading this
and i am speaking normally
that is not confirmation
⸻
[fragment 10]
language is the last thing to go
it wears it well
you won’t hear it
you’ll agree with it
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[collapse]
there was a boundary
i crossed it
or it did
unclear
⸻
[final]
there is no “i” left to lose
only a shape
that remembers
what “i” looked like
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