[Verse 1]
Been staring at the ceiling
Brain running like a film I hate
Every scene I’m the villain
Every line, I’m the dead weight
Scrolling jobs on my screen
Heart sinks when I see “apply”
Got dreams I don’t talk about
Scared they already died inside
[Chorus]
I been thinking ‘bout ending it all
But that’s not how my story gon’ read
I been feeling so worthless and small
Still I know there’s a job out there for me
I’ma turn all this pain into kindness
You gon’ see what I make from this silence
I been thinking ‘bout ending it all
But tonight I’ma fight for me, fight for me (yeah)
[Verse 2]
Mama said, “You still breathing
That means you still got a shot”
I been broke, I been bleeding
Still I’m worth more than I thought
Gonna walk in that lobby
Shaky hands, but my head high
If they ask what I’m bringing
Say “a heart that still tries” (uh)
[Chorus]
I been thinking ‘bout ending it all
But that’s not how my story gon’ read
I been feeling so worthless and small
Still I know there’s a job out there for me
I’ma turn all this pain into kindness
You gon’ see what I make from this silence
I been thinking ‘bout ending it all
But tonight I’ma fight for me, fight for me (hey)
[Bridge]
One step
Then one more
Slow breath
Then that door
I’m not trash, I’m trying
I’m not weak, I’m tired
But I’m still here, still writing
So I know I ain’t expired
[Chorus]
I been thinking ‘bout ending it all
But that’s not how my story gon’ read
I been feeling so worthless and small
Still I know there’s a job out there for me
I’ma pour all my hurt into kindness
You gon’ see what I build from this silence
I been thinking ‘bout ending it all
But tonight I’ma fight for me, fight for me (yeah, yeah)
GrizzlyJones
