“You’re so quiet, you should talk more“
“She acts like she’s too good to talk to anyone. Little Miss Perfect.“
“Stop talking, you’re being disrespectful.“
“Shut up!”
“I asked you a question, you need to answer!“
“Grow up. You need to have a back bone.“
Communication is a necessary skill that everyone usually learns. I’ve never truly developed it in a healthy manner due to the dwindling words that have been spoken over my life from a young age. Words are so powerful, they speak life or death.
“God, I feel that I can’t go on… I feel that nobody cares. What is the point…I feel like I have no voice. I feel as though it has been cursed or perhaps stolen, like in the little mermaid. No matter how hard I try, my words work against me.”
I know it was never God’s intention for me to feel this way and in so, this was his response that appeared as I was writing.
“Oh, how I care for you. Oh, how You are loved. Your voice matters. I have given you a purpose and have revealed it to you, as in pieces of a puzzle. You won’t see the whole picture right away, but I promise that it will come together as I have planned. I am for you and not against you. You are loved.”
Writing has been my escape to spill out all of the feelings that I have without feeling invalidated in return. It is a good release, healthier than previous vices I have run to.
God often speaks to me through my writing, which is why I felt led to begin this blog. I hope this speaks to you as well.
If you can relate, and even if you don’t…Know that you are loved.
-Katie Vandevelde xx
The Quiet Chick