Nightmare I Can’t Wake Up From

Every morning feels the same

Open my eyes, but nothing’s changed

Walking on eggshells through the day

Trying not to make you rage

You smile while you sharpen every knife

Cut me down and call it love

Tell me I’m the reason why

The sky keeps falling from above

You say I’m crazy

You say it’s me

But I’m losing pieces of who I used to be

This life feels like a nightmare I can’t wake up from

A dark room with no windows and nowhere left to run

I’m screaming underwater, but nobody hears the sound

You keep pulling me under while pretending not to drown

You stole the colors from my world

Turned my heart into a ghost

I’m trapped inside this nightmare

With the person I loved most

You rewrite every memory

Until I don’t know what is true

I apologize for things

That I never meant to do

You tell me no one else would stay

That I’m lucky you’re around

But every word you throw at me

Leaves another bruise I can’t count

You say I’m broken

You say I’m weak

But the strongest thing I’ve done is survive another week

This life feels like a nightmare I can’t wake up from

A dark room with no windows and nowhere left to run

I’m screaming underwater, but nobody hears the sound

You keep pulling me under while pretending not to drown

You stole the colors from my world

Turned my heart into a ghost

I’m trapped inside this nightmare

With the person I loved most

Maybe one day I’ll remember

Who I was before the fear

Before I learned to make myself smaller

Just to keep the peace in here

Maybe one day I’ll find a door

Hidden in these shattered walls

And when the sunlight hits my face

I won’t answer when you call

This life felt like a nightmare I couldn’t wake up from

But somewhere in the darkness I remembered who I’ve become

A fighter in the silence

A survivor of the storm

And the chains that held me captive

Don’t fit me anymore

You stole the colors from my world

But they’re coming back somehow

The nightmare’s losing power

And I’m waking up now

I’m waking up now…

I’m waking up now…

You don’t get to haunt my dreams forever.