Grace was Sufficient

Before I ever saw your face

Before I held your tiny hand

God whispered softly in my heart

A name I didn’t understand

He said, “Call her Grace, my child

For My grace will carry you”

I didn’t know the road ahead

Or all we’d have to walk through

My body ached to make you room

Every stretch felt like a fight

And every day I prayed for strength

To make it through the night

The doctors spoke in worried tones

The fear kept growing deep

But God was writing promises

While I was losing sleep

Grace was sufficient when I was breaking

Grace was enough when my whole world was shaking

When the storm clouds gathered and the winter winds blew

God held my hand and He carried us through

Through every heartbeat, every tear I’d cried

Through every moment I thought we might not survive

You were my miracle before I knew your name

And every scar reminds me why they called you Grace

My hands would burn, my feet would itch

The nights felt endless and long

My liver strained beneath the weight

But somehow we held on

Then one cold day at work I knew

Something didn’t feel quite right

My swollen feet, my aching frame

Just trying to make it home that night

The roads were frozen, slick with ice

The sky was gray above

I made a turn, the car slid hard

And fear replaced my trust

I slammed the brakes, my body jerked

I breathed relief and drove away

Never knowing deep inside

Everything would change that day

At one a.m. I rose from bed

Certain I just had to go

Then waters rushed like waterfalls

And suddenly I knew

Grace was sufficient when I was breaking

Grace was enough when my whole world was shaking

When the storm clouds gathered and the winter winds blew

God held my hand and He carried us through

Through every heartbeat, every tear I’d cried

Through every moment I thought we might not survive

You were my miracle before I knew your name

And every scar reminds me why they called you Grace

Thirty-three weeks wasn’t enough time

Not for a mother to say goodbye to fear

Blood replaced the water

Contractions came every two minutes

The storm outside was raging

But a bigger storm was here

Placenta torn away

Water broken too soon

A breech little baby fighting for life

Under operating room lights

I closed my eyes in terror

As they pulled me into sleep

And whispered one last prayer

“Lord, please keep my baby.”

Then silence…

Then a cry…

The sweetest sound I’ve ever heard

Grace was sufficient when the darkness found me

Grace was enough when the fear surrounded me

When my body was broken and my heart couldn’t see

God was already holding the ending for me

I woke to pain that stole my breath

Like I’d been torn apart

But one look at your precious face

Began healing my heart

You were tiny, you were fragile

You were fighting from the start

But God had written “miracle”

Across your little heart

So when I call your name, my girl

I remember what is true

The grace that carried me through the storm is the same grace carrying you