In My Head

I be there but not really there

like I’m feeling it and thinking about it at the same time

I be in my head while it’s happening

like I’m there but I’m analyzing it

It feel good but I question it

try to enjoy it, I’m processing it

You right here but I drift away

not from you, just my thoughts in the way

I wanna feel it, just let it be

but my mind don’t let me be free

We sitting close, you talking to me

I’m listening but thinking in between

Like why this feel different than before

why it feel calm but I’m unsure

I catch myself trying to read too deep

looking for something that I don’t see

You just being you, it’s simple as that

but I’m in my head trying to figure out facts

Like is this real or just right for now

is this something I should trust right now

Whole time you just enjoying me

and I’m somewhere else mentally

I be in my head while it’s happening

like I’m there but I’m analyzing it

It feel good but I question it

try to enjoy it, I’m processing it

You right here but I drift away

not from you, just my thoughts in the way

I wanna feel it, just let it be

but my mind don’t let me be free

You reach for me, I lean right back

but in my head I’m tracking that

Like don’t move too fast, don’t fall too deep

don’t get too comfortable, don’t lose your peace

I be warning myself in real time

while I’m right here in a good vibe

And I hate that I do that

turn something simple into a format

Like I’m trying to protect me from pain

but I’m blocking the good in the same

You don’t see it but it’s happening

I’m here with you but I’m balancing

I be in my head while it’s happening

like I’m there but I’m analyzing it

It feel good but I question it

try to enjoy it, I’m processing it

You right here but I drift away

not from you, just my thoughts in the way

I wanna feel it, just let it be

but my mind don’t let me be free

Now I’m noticing what I do

I don’t fully fall into you

Not ’cause I don’t feel it strong

I just don’t wanna get it wrong

I’ve been here before, I know that place

where everything good slowly change

So now I move with a careful mind

even when everything feel aligned

But I’m learning I might miss something real

trying to control how it’s supposed to feel

And maybe I don’t need to think it through

maybe I just need to sit with you

I don’t need to understand it all

to feel it

I be in my head while it’s happening

like I’m there but I’m analyzing it

It feel good but I question it

try to enjoy it, I’m processing it

I’m trying

to just be here